Good-bye 2012 and Hello 2013!

This year has had its ups and downs for me and Master, but as always we have pulled through even the hardest of times and have always risen from our hardships as stronger people. I'd like to take a moment to look back at all of the great things that have happened to me and even take a look at the things that weren't so great, but made me a stronger person in the end.

I'd like to do things a little different this time around, though. Usually I list the good stuff first and the bad stuff last, but I want to flip it around because I'd rather end this on a high note as it is always best to look at the positive last. So on with the events of this past year.

The Not So Good:

1. In April of this year I was hit with a double whammy in which I landed myself in the hospital with an unknown illness that was causing my kidney's to fail. Talk of dialysis became something that was an every day thing and it was hard not to cry and panic. Because of this I missed a whole week of work and school
2. That same week a beloved friend of Master's family and grand father like person to me passed away due to lung cancer. It was one of the hardest weeks of this year, but it was his death that encouraged me to get well and keep my head up.
3. This occurred in October, but as some of you know I was in a poly relationship of a sort with Angel and due to circumstances it had to come to an end. I took it really hard, and possibly harder than I should have, but I think it is safe to say that I will probably never attempt another poly relationship. It's not because it was a bad experience, because it was nothing but a positive one, I just don't think I'll ever make a connection with someone else like I did with her, and I don't think poly is quite for me. Regardless, there is good that came out of this. Though things are still a tad awkward between us, at least we are still friends and I couldn't really ask for much else than that. So I'm very thankful.

Overall I feel as if I have been really put to the test this year with my health, be it physical and mental health. I  have had to deal with a lot of stress and hardships, but the most important part is that I have come out on top and I feel I've become a better person for it.

The Good:

1. I have learned to have a lot of patience over the past year and every day I am slowly growing more into the person I wish to be.
2. Master and I have celebrated our fourth anniversary this year and our relationship is only gotten deeper and more meaningful than it has ever been.
3. I quit my retail job and said good-bye to a load of stress that has been looming over my head for the last two and half years. I don't like the having no money part, but Master and I have pushed through this and we are doing better than expected.
4. I have made a lot of new friends this year and even grew closer to some friends who have become an important part of my life.
5. I graduated from college and am now officially a Medical Assistant.
6. I have gained a new found confidence in myself and my life. I feel more successful with my accomplishments and I am no longer afraid to openly admit that I am a great person and hold my head high with the confidence I deserve.
7. Master's family has been more welcoming to me this year and I can really feel connections beginning with them.
8. Master's report card this time around was nothing but great and simply a wonderful bit of news that all of us were hoping for. 
9. My blog has been receiving thousands upon thousands of views each month and I have even gained quite a few new followers, whom I'm ever so thankful for and excited about.
10. Most of all, I have learned. I have learned so many new things about life, about the medical field, and about how to love and serve my Master better. I am more sure of myself than I was this time last year, and I know what I want out of life and I know how I want my life to be. I am more knowledgeable than I was last year, and that is something to be very thankful for.

I want to thank all of you wonderful people for following me, for lurking, and for talking to me. You all have given me so much support this year and have made me so happy in my times of need. I am always glad to share my life with all of you, and I'm thankful that you all are interested in what I have to say. 

Here is to wishing all of you a Happy New Year and may 2013 be a better year for all of us.

~*~Anastassia~*~

P.S. The poll is closed and the votes are in. The majority voted that they wanted to see more toy reviews and talk of my kinks this year, so as a resolution for my blog, I plan to do just that and give my followers exactly what they want. Thank you for voting and participating in my poll!

Merry Christmas!!

Sorry I haven't been blogging much lately, with the holidays around, life has been really busy over here and I've barely had any time to get on my computer. Or any computer for that matter. I just wanted to stop by really quick to wish everyone a Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays before I headed out to see more family this morning. I hope everyone has been having a great time with their loved ones and hopefully I'll see you all again before next year! Haha

Take care!

~*~Anastassia~*~

Toy Review Saturday: Icicles!

Hello everyone! This is my third Saturday in a row of doing toy reviews. I hope everyone has been enjoying them, and if you have any suggestions, please feel free to post them in the comments.

Today's review will be of the two icicles that I own. Both are similar in size and shape, hence why I'm doing both of them in one go. 

The one here on the left is actually the first icicle we ever purchased. I love the ridges around the whole length of it. It gives amazing sensations and is easy to use. The one on the right is our second purchase of the icicles. It's a little bit smaller, but has those same ridges, just in pink! (I love pink) 

The pink one also is slightly hooked at the top for use of a G-spot massager. It is wonderful and really reaches that spot very well. The pink one also comes with a vibrating pill that can be inserted into that loop at the bottom so that it can vibrate. The vibrator has 10 different setting on it as well. Something I really love about both of these, though is that they can be put in the freezer to chill to give cold sensations during insertion, or if you do not like cold, this can also be dipped in warm water for a while so that it can warm to nice temperatures. After all, it is made out of glass, so it can be versatile. 

Pros: 

1. Ribbed (for pleasure! lol)
2. The pink one has the G-spot massager
3. Can be put in the fridge/freezer to chill
4. Can be placed in warm water to warm it up.
5. Made of thick glass so it's not easy to break.
6. The pink icicle comes with that vibrating pill that has 10 settings on it.

Cons: 

1. It is glass so it does not have any give, as say a silicone toy may have.

I hope you all enjoyed this review!Have a great weekend!

Also, before I end this post, Master and I purchased the body wand this evening, so there will definitely be a post about that here in about a week or so. ;D

~*~Anastassia~*~

It's Over... At Least For Now.

Well, for those of you who have been following me for quite some time now, my finals are over and so is my schooling. I am now a Medical Assistant, and after April when I take my Certification Exam, I will be fully certified. 

Final grades are in and I have three A's and one B on my final report card. I'm definitely okay with this and I'm just happy that this is all over. At least for now. 

To clarify, I don't plan on stopping here. I have been throwing it in my head of what the next step I wanted to take is, and my decision is final. I wish to become a Physician's Assistant. Pretty much I will be one step below an actual doctor, doing just about the same things a doctor does. I don't know how long it will be before I can finally reach this goal, but I plan on getting it done before I die, if the fates grant it. 

So as this chapter in my life come to a close, all I can think of is just feeling extremely accomplished and ready to move on to the next thing in my life. I have so much I want to do, and it feels like I have very little time, but I have faith that everything will work out and my goals will be met.

Thank you to everyone who gave me well wishes and cheered me on. It has meant so much to me, and I hope I can continue sharing my journey with all of you. Take care!

~*~Anastassia~*~

CWS Challenge 3 & 4

So I'm a little behind on the challenges, therefore I'm putting these two together. They seem to practically go hand in hand anyways.

Challenge #3: Write about what is going through your mind while you are sucking cock.

Honestly, the biggest portion of the time when I am sucking on Master's cock, the only thing going through my head is trying my best to please Him. I always focus on Him 100% when going down on Him and I give Him my undivided attention. I'm so focused on pleasing Him that nothing else seems to matter. I want nothing more than to make Him feel amazing and to make Him cum. He is all that matters while I give Him a blow job.

Challenge #4: Make an ecard about blow jobs.

~*~Anastassia~*~

Play Party Fun and A New Hat

Last night was Master's birthday (WOO!) and He decided it would be okay to spend it with friends at a play party. We met quite a few new faces and even saw some old ones. It was like a big family reunion with lots of naked people and lots of kink action packed into one night. We had great food in the midst of amazing company. 

I didn't do a whole heck of a lot of playing, but Master and I did start off our night with a beating scene.

During the beating that had ensued, I remember drifting off into my own little world and slowly the sounds of chatter and excitement from others around us had disappeared and I could barely hear anything at all. All I could hear was my own whimpers barely escaping the ball gag in my mouth, the sound of the crop swinging down on my bare bottom and I faintly felt my own drool trickling down on my arms.

I was truly in a head space all of my own and it wasn't until the beating stopped that I snapped out of it. I took my blind fold off and looked at the table I was lying on and that was when I noticed just how much I had drooled all over myself and the table. It was literally everywhere. I don't think I have ever drooled that much during a scene ever before. 

After the initial shock was over, I sat down on my butt and that was when I felt the stinging pain jolt through me. I reached around to touch myself and I felt actual welts on me. I've never really had welts (that I can remember) so this really made my evening. A huge smile crept across my face and a friend of mine nearby started laughing at me. She said it was cute how I drooled more and more and that I was so excited to have welts on my ass.

After a little bit of after care and cleaning off the space we used, I ventured around the room to talk to some friends and meet some new ones. Panda and Angel had showed up to this party and with them they brought the hat that Angel had knitted for me herself. 

Isn't it cute?! ^.^ Purple is one of my favorite colors and she definitely did not disappoint. Which I had no doubts anyways. (If you want a hat like this, check out her etsy shop. She does amazing work and has very good prices. She also knits other things too, so click the link above and see what selection she has).

After talking with them, I ventured over to watch some friends doing fire play on one another, and I could not resist having that done on me as well. After they were finished, I asked my friend if she could perform fire play on me as well, as we had never been able to play with fire together, and thankfully she agreed to it. 

I'm telling you.. she is amazing. That is not to dispute that Master isn't great either, but she is just great. It's like she is using the fire as her paint brush and the human body as her canvas to create a wonderful work of art. I had so much fun lying there as she drummed on my body with the fire wands. Fire play is absolutely one of my favorite things in the kink world and I can never get enough of it.

I have no idea how much time had passed, but by the time she was done, I thanked her and Master and I packed our things and left. We had grown very tired and Master was about ready to crash. 

This morning we slept in a little bit, and sure enough, I still have a few welts left on my ass from last night's beating. So I'm pretty much beaming with pride over here.

I hope everyone had a great weekend, but now it's time for me to get back to studying for finals. Take care you lovely people!! <3

~*~Anastassia~*~

Toy Review Saturday: Horse Hair Grass Flogger

This particular toy right here was made for Master and I by a friend of ours. It may not look like much, but this can be used as a stingy type toy, and it can also be used as a tickler. The amount of sting really matters on how fast and hard you swing. In my opinion, this can be used on anyone who likes just about any level of sting type pain. Honestly, I find this toy very relaxing when being hit with it.

 

My favorite thing about this particular flogger is that it can be used to enhance sensations. For example: Master likes to use this on me after He's beaten me with a crop. So this flogger, when hit by it after getting a nice spanking or beating prior, can enhance the pain and thus causes a bit more of a stinging sensation. It is deliciously stingy and I love it.

As I said before, it can also be used as a tickler, so taking it and gently sliding it over the body can cause a nice tickling sensation as well. Which I also find relaxing and a good add to foreplay. 

There is some slight maintenance to this toy, as it is made with horse hair grass. We have to use a particular type of oil on the grass to keep it from drying out and becoming brittle. The good part about that is that only has to be done a couple times out of the year, and it doesn't take a lot of oil to maintain it. 

So now on to the pros and cons list to finish the up! ^.^

Pros:

1. This flogger is versatile and can be used for stinging pain and for a soft tickling sensation.
2. The flogger is a very light toy and is easy to swing.
3. Can be used with other toys to enhance sensations.
4. Very low maintenance. Only requires oil 2 - 3 times out of a year.

Cons: None

Truthfully, I have no complaints about this toy what-so-ever. It was a wonderful gift from a friend and I hope this toy lasts us a lifetime. ^.^

~*~Anastassia~*~ 

CWS Challenge #2: I Know I'm About to Suck His Cock...

Spanky's second challenge is to write 55 words on when we know we're about to suck on a cock. So as I promised to not be a disappointment and do these challenges, here is my entry on this.

His hand grasped my chin and gently pulled my head up to look into His piercing eyes. "I know you want it, slave. Beg."
I persistently did so, not only did I plead with my words, but with my eyes and body as well. With the slide of His zipper, I knew I had won my prize.

So that is 57 words. Guess I'm a little of an over achiever, then. lol

To see the other entries from CWS, check out this link and see what everyone else had to say. ^.^ 

Not going to lie this was a little challenging for me as I tend to type in a lot of details and filler words, and this made me actually think so that I could get the point across a lot faster and in a simpler way. Thanks to Spanky for posting this challenge, and a thank you to Kitty the Submissive Wife who was the one to have come up with this idea.

~*~Anastassia~*~

Toy Review Saturday: "The Loop"

So I'm starting a new segment of my blog where each Saturday I will review a toy Master and I own, hence the title of this post! 

Today, I'm reviewing a hitting implement we call "the loop". We don't really know the name of this item as we bought it from a vendor at a party we went to back in March of this year, so the shape of this item is why we gave it this name.

I love getting spanked and whipped, so this item really gives me everything I want when it comes to a hitting implement. It is a solid mix between a thud and a sting. The initial bite of this toy against my flesh is something to be delighted if you love pain. It's one of my favorite toys and it's especially fun to be on the receiving end when Master hits me with this out of nowhere. 

Don't let this fool you, though, it can pack a wallop if you can swing hard enough. This toy is not recommended for those who don't like a mix of thuddy and stingy pain, and it is not for those who prefer light pain. It really takes a pain slut (in my opinion) to handle a beating from this toy, because with each hit, it hurts more and more. 

Here is a picture of the type of marks this toy leaves. ^.^ We tested it out on me this afternoon just for this post. So these marks are still on my bottom, and my bottom is still warm.

Pros: 

1. This is a really fantastic toy if you love pain.
2. There is an even feeling of sting and thud mixed into this toy when being hit by it.
3. It's small and easy to store/hide.
4. Easy to make if you want to make one yourself. Just use plasti-dip for the handle and nylon coated wire rope.

Cons:

1. Not recommended for those who enjoy light pain over heavy pain. 

So there you have it! ^.^

~*~Anastassia~*~

Why I Love Sucking Cock

I just recently (as of this morning) became a member of Cock Worshipping Subs and Spanky has asked that as a member if I could do the challenges listed if I wanted to, and of course I want to! Cause what else is better than talking about cock worshipping and cock sucking? ^.^

So as you all should know, I love sucking on Master's cock and that is something I've never been modest about. But in my opinion, what goes better with a post about cock sucking than a picture of me sucking Master's cock? 

Check out those Guinness boxers! ;D

I love sucking on Master's cock because of many reason's. Most of all, I love it because of the pleasure I bring Master. Hearing His moans and sighs while sucking on His cock gives me the tingles and turns me on more than anything. I love the way He holds my head and pulls on my hair, guiding me as I take all of Him into my mouth. I love that I can suck on His cock so well that He can't help but to thrust deep into my throat, fucking my mouth with as much force as He possibly can. 

The greatest pleasure I get from sucking His cock, though, is making Him cum. I always know I have done a great job sucking Him off when I can make Him cum with just my mouth only, and that is a certain type of pride I hold dear. 

Overall, even though it is a huge turn on for me to be sucking and worshipping Master's cock, I do it more for Him than I do it for myself. His pleasure is my pleasure, and that is why I love sucking cock. 

~*~Anastassia~*~

Sinful Pleasures {Chapter One}

So I wrote a story nearly 3 years ago (that I had forgotten about) and Master had been digging around the internet as He seemed to remembered that I had posted it online. I told Him He was full of Himself and it didn't happen. Turns out, He was right, and He is now pushing for me to post it on here. I hope you all enjoy it.

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Snow. The Earth's cold blanket that covers the ground beneath our feet in the dead of winter. It is yet another peaceful night filled with silence as billions of tiny ice crystals decorate the forest floor with their sparkling beauty. The air is frigid and the night is young. The beings that walk this earth have taken refuge in their warm houses, snuggled up tight in their blankets, and for most, sound asleep. Yet while your typical person will take shelter from the cold, a not-so-typical pair could be seen walking through the dead trees of a nearby forest. One, being a young woman of five feet and five inches tall with red-purple hair barely cascading over her shoulders, and the other, a young male standing at about six feet tall with short black hair and eyes that could pierce the soul. Side by side, their footsteps were planted into the snow, as they walked along hand in hand. After a long silence, the girl turned to the young man and spoke in a soft and playful whiny tone.

"Master, you never told me why you have that backpack over your shoulders. What do you plan on doing, studying out in the snow?" She giggled at her playful sarcasm as she kept her eyes on him.

He only grinned and mused back to her in a tone that rung with coy boredom, "No, my sweet Kitten. You'll find out what the backpack is for soon enough. Patience, my little girl."

"Yes, Sir," was her only reply before she fell silent again. She knew he was up to something. Her Master loved to surprise her with little things every-so-often, and this was nothing different, or so she thought. A cold wind began to stir the air around them, and she pulled herself close to him to keep warm. Gently wrapping an arm around her, he pulled her even closer for a secure hold. They carried on their journey through the quiet, snow filled forest before finally stopping by a rather large pine tree. The man slung the backpack off his shoulders and let it fall to the ground, causing the snow to pop up from the ground and land partially on the backpack and around it.

"Alright, Kitten, here is where the fun is going to take place," he finally said after looking his slave over and giving an evil grin. The girl said not a word before he advanced on her, pushing her up against the tree and pressing his lips to hers gently. He ran his hands all over her body, letting them slide over her chest, stomach and arms before pinning her wrists to the tree. His kissing now getting a little more forceful on her lips. In a matter of seconds, her body started responding to him, making her move closer to him, trying to push her hips into his. This made him part from her mouth, but only enough to speak.

"No, Jess. I am doing the work tonight. Just relax and let me take control. Understand, Kitten?"

"Yes, M'Lord."

With that, he nipped at her bottom lip, causing her to give a tiny whimper, before he parted her lips some more with his tongue. He let his tongue slide into her mouth, making sure to taste every bit of her teeth, gums and all around her oral cavity. He loved knowing every bit of his Kitten, and there was no way he was going to let her mouth be any exception. The sensations that were now stirring through her mouth started to make her weak at the knees. She flicked her tongue over his a few times, but he made a noise letting her know that she shouldn't do that. Obediently, she let him dominate her mouth, as he let go of one of her wrists to run his free hand up her shirt and cup her left breast. How warm and soft her skin felt to his touch. As he was running his slightly cold fingers over her nipple, it began to harden under his touch, becoming a nice fleshy point for him to pinch at. In that moment, Jess began moaning into his mouth, protesting the pleasure she was feeling from this action. After a few more minutes of pinching and lightly pulling at her left nipple, he slid his hand out from under her shirt and broke away from their kiss. Within seconds, Jess had already begun to miss the warmth of his full lips pressed to hers.

"Master, why did you stop?" She breathed heavily, causing steam to rise from her mouth.

"Mmm, 'cause I can, my pet. Now, take off that jacket."

"But, Sir! It's absolutely bone chilling out here!"

"Not for long. Now do as I say, before I am forced to whip you till steam is rolling off your face from the hot tears you'd be crying," he replied with a dominant and stern tone.

"Yes, Lord Evan," was the shy response that escaped her lips as a blush began to form on her cheeks. With that, she began to shed the jacket off her shoulders and arms, causing her body to get increasingly cold. All the while, Evan had been busy rummaging through the backpack on the ground.

"Here you are, Sir." Jess held the jacket in her arms, presenting it to Evan. Pretending to ignore her, Evan continued looking through the backpack, making her stand there at full attention, arms held out with the jacket placed gently on them, and growing colder by the second. 'Ahhh. She's such a good girl,' he thought to himself in amusement. A small grin formed onto his lips as he found what he was looking for. Bringing himself to a full standing position, he turned to Jessie and held up a gag ball and flogger in both hands.

"Trade me." He handed her the two items and swiftly took the jacket from her and placed it into the backpack. While he did that, Jessie looked at the items and shivered, though the shiver was not from the cold this time. It was from the slight surge of ecstasy that coursed through her body when she thought of what was about to happen to her. Evan just smiled at her as he walked up to her and kissed her lips softly, and took the flogger and gag ball from her hands. He looked her dead in the eyes, and she knew exactly what to do next. With little hesitation, she began removing her shirt and jeans, also placing them into the backpack. Now, she was shivering from the cold. Steam was being emitted from her mouth with each hot breath that escaped her lungs. Even though she was starting to freeze, Jessie made sure to stand at full attention, standing straight and arms at her sides. Evan gave a chuckle at this and spoke in a slight mocking manner.

"Aww, is poor Kitten cold? Does she want Master to warm her up? Hm?" She nodded and gave a small "Mhm" in response.

"What was that? I couldn't hear you over your teeth chattering." It was true, he loved to toy with her like this and watch her squirm under his control

"Yes, Master."

"Hm. I'm not thoroughly convinced that is what you want me to do, Kitten."

"Please, Master, please warm your Kitten up, she is very cold and needs your warmth, Sir!" she replied in an almost frantic manner. Evan just smiled at her, told her she was a good girl, and motioned for her to turn around. Knowing exactly what he meant, she wrapped her arms around the tree, pushed her ass out and prepared for what was yet to come. In no time, she was feeling the cold leather of the flogger hitting her ass at full force, causing hot red streaks to form under her panties. She let out a cry of pain and shuddered as the flogger came down on her ass and bit into the flesh. Already, she was panting and her panties were starting to get moist.

"Now this just won't do," Evan said as he tilted his head to the side. "Off with the panties, we don't want them getting too wet."

"Yes... M'Lord," she panted out and began removing her panties. As she did so, Evan took his time running his fingertips over the marks he so lovingly gave her. Indeed, they were searing hot, but this only make him that much prouder. When Jessie finally managed to pull her panties over ankles, she stood up, turned around and presented them to him.

"Here you are, Sir." He brushed her hair from her shoulders and planted a soft kiss on her neck that sent chills down her spine.

"Good girl." He threw the panties into the backpack and started to place the gag in her mouth. "We don't want you making too much noise, now do we?" When he had finished placing it in her mouth, she nodded her head at him and went pack to holding onto the tree.

Instead of going straight into whipping her eager ass again, he decided to take the flogger and rub it up against her thighs and nether lips, causing her to squirm a bit. When this happened, he was quick to start whipping her ass and thighs with the flogger, making sure to leave read marks all over her. By the time he was finished with her, she was already drooling around the ball that was placed in her mouth, and her inner upper thighs were moist from the juices that began to leak out of her. The cold was definitely not an issue anymore, that was until Evan took hold of one of the branches above Jessie's head, gently pulling it down to let it go and have snow fall over her. She let out another cry and arched her back. Jessie was now fidgeting about, moving her hips, wanting more and though the cold stung at her skin like a thousand needles, she was craving more. Evan laughed at this and proceeded to push her whole body against the tree. The bark, rough on her chest and stomach, and his hips pushing into her ass, was making her feel the bulge of his hardening cock on her ass.

This only made her want more. She continued to move her hips, rubbing up against him. Begging him with her body. Letting him know that she wanted him, but of course, he wasn't going to give in just yet. Evan braced her hips in his hands with a tight grip and pushed her ass into his pelvic region once more, forcing her to grind up on him. Taking his right hand, he ran it over her ass and over her southern lips, occasionally dipping a finger into her tight wet hole. Oh how hot she felt on his hand. He was half shocked that she was producing steam down there from how hot it was. He unclipped the gag from her mouth and let it fall to the ground. The moment the ball escaped the grasp of her teeth, panting could be heard coming from her mouth. Evan continued pushing a single finger into her, pulling it out slowly and then suddenly forcing it back in. Eventually, he added a second finger, spreading her hole open a little more.

"Goodness, Kitten. You're so wet and so tight. I don't know if you'll be able to handle the punishment from my cock." All of a sudden, Jessie let out a gasp and began to breathe heavily while protesting to Evan.

"Oh Master. I can take you. I know I can! I can always take my Master!"

"Can you now?" he mused with a sly grin.

"Oh yes, Sir! Yes I can."

"Mmm, then beg for it, Kitten. Beg for my cock, you greedy little slut. Tell me how bad you want it and I just might give it to you."

Jessie began twisting her hips as Evan pumped his two fingers in and out of her. "Ohhhh, Master! Please! Please give me your wonderful cock, Sir! This slut needs your cock, Master! She needs it so bad! She needs to have your cock fill her up and fuck her good!" By now she was breathing even heavier and her body was definitely warm to the touch.

"Oh, Kitten. You'll have to do much better than that. Come on, whore! Beg for it. Beg for my thick cock like a good Kitten, you dirty slut!" His words were as cold and chilling as the snow, but she loved it. She loved when he talked to her like some common whore, and this only made her move her hips even more, thrusting them a bit to meet the push if his hand.

"Please, Master! I need your cock, Sir! I want your cock, I need it I need it so bad, Sir! Please, give this undeserving whore your cock. She has been so kind to you, Sir! Show her some mercy?"

"Mercy? You want mercy, huh?" A twisted grin formed over his lips and his eyes glowed from excitement. He slid his fingers out of her and turned her to face him. "Undress me, now." He commanded, and she obeyed. She slid his coat off of him, and threw it off to the side. Next was his shirt to go as she began kissing his lips hard. It wasn't too long before she was fiddling with his belt and pulling his own jeans and boxers off his thighs to reveal his hardened member. Evan gently pushed on the top of her head, causing her to fall to her knees. There was not a moment that went by before she took his cock deep into her throat, swirling her tongue over and along it, making sure to lick every bit of it and pushing it to the back of her throat. She would pump it in and out of her mouth, occasionally taking the whole length out just to flick her tongue about the tip. While she worked her mouth around him, Evan was gripping the hair on the back of her head, and pushing his cock into her mouth. It wasn't before too long that his breathing began to increase and he felt his knees going weak. 'God, this girl. Fuck. She knows how to work her mouth for sure,' were the thoughts running through his head as he plowed into her mouth.

"That's right, Kitten. Take it. Take it all into that greedy mouth of yours! Do you want me to fuck you still? Hmmm, Kitten? Think you've done enough to deserve my cock?" He looked down at her and waited for a reply. She looked up at him, her pale green eyes filled with lust and yearning. Just by taking one look at her, it was easy to tell she was craving him bad. While still sucking on his length, she stifled out what sounded like "Mhm", but Evan would not tolerate that.

"Now now, you know better than to talk with your mouth full. Take me out of your mouth and speak."

Jessie did as she was commanded and continued to look into his eyes. "Yes, Master! Yes! Fuck me! Fuck me now, Sir! Please!"

"Very well." And with that, he brought her to feet, pinned her back against the tree and hoisted her up by her thighs and positioned himself right beneath her as she wrapped her legs around his waist. He then began rubbing the tip of his cock against her blazing hot, wet opening, causing her insides to ache for him more. Without a single warning, he buried his cock into her cunt, hard and fast, which made her jolt, arch her back and cry out in sheer ecstasy. Evan began biting at her neck and collarbone as she wrapped her arms tight around him while he pumped into her. Her hips were moving involuntarily into his. Both their hearts were beating so hard it felt like they would explode at any moment. Moans were escaping their throats in between heavy breathing and the world had slowed down just for them, in this moment. The passion between the two was a fire all of its own, but as they became one with each other, that flame became a blazing inferno that had no mercy. This was their moment and they were so lost in it. Evan was holding onto her so tight that his nails began leaving marks in her sides, his powerful thrusts resulting in friction between her back and the tree. His teeth, piercing into her skin, caused her to bleed for him. She cried out and dug her nails into his back, dragging them up and leaving hot red marks all over his back. This did not stop him. He was determined to have his slave, and have her just the way he wanted.

He began sucking at the wound, taking her blood into his waiting mouth, still pumping hard into her. This being done, it drove her over the edge and she was crashing on to him with her first powerful orgasm of the night. Her muscles clenched around his cock, inviting him to pump harder and faster into her. It wasn't before long 'til he was sent over the edge as well and his seed exploded inside of her. Panting and used, Jessie clung to him as she came down from her orgasm. Their moans still echoing throughout the silence of the night. Jessie looked into Evan's eyes and gave a tired smile as she tenderly kissed at his lips. Evan returned the kiss and tenderly licked at the bite mark he had left on her.

"Thank you so much, Master." She whispered in his ear as he pulled himself out of her and gently place her feet on the ground.

"Anything for you, my sweet Kitten. I love you, always and forever."

"And I love you, Master. That will never change."

"Good." He kissed her lips again, "Now, let's get dressed and head home, okay?"

"Yes, Sir."

Feeling the cold air around them again, they were motivated to quickly get their clothes back on, gather their belongings, and head home for the night.

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If you want to view it on the site I originally posted it on here is the link.

Tell me what you all think. If this hits off on here as well as it did on that site, I'll continue this and we'll see where it goes. ^.^

The Body Wand Mini: Toy Review

About a week and a half ago, Master and I made a stop at the usual sex shop, The Lions Den. I have been wanting a Hitachi something fierce, but we never have enough money saved up to buy one. So we took a step below what I wanted and got The Body Wand Mini instead. 

I love vibrators, especially for clitoral stimulation. It really helps me ease into an orgasm. Plus if I'm already having an orgasm, the vibrations typically make it more powerful for me, which of course I want more of.

So I'm thinking it's going to be something to just tie me over until we have enough money to actually get a Hitachi or else get the regular version of the body wand that has more settings and is wireless and rechargeable. (More than likely, we're going to get that one cause the wireless and rechargeable part is pretty awesome).

Boy was I proven wrong, and am I ever so glad and thankful of that. We tried it out as soon as we got back home and even though it only has four settings, each setting is more powerful than the next. The best part? It's not very loud. I absolutely LOVE this item. Everything from the soft, silicone, a neck that is flexible  the color, down to the pretty Rhine stones near the base, this toy really rocks my world, and I recommend anyone to get this who is into vibrations. 

So, on to the pros and cons list.

Pros: 

1. It's only 4" long so it's easy to hide and store in small spaces.
2. It comes in different colors
3. It's quiet
4. It only costs about $20, and worth every penny
5. The neck is flexible 
6. The head piece cover is made of silicone, so it is smooth to the touch
7. Silicone cover is removeable for easy clean up
8. It has four intensity settings on the base of the wand. Just takes a little twist. ;D
9. It's splash proof
10. Batteries do not seem to drain quickly
11. It came with the batteries already inside the package

Cons: 

1. It takes 6 LR44 batteries. I personally do not like those tiny batteries, because they are easy to lose.
2. There is a small plastic tube in the wand that (I did not know at first) has to stay in it so the wand does not freak out and start vibrating on its own. There was no warning of it in the box, or no directions talking about it.

So it is pretty safe to say that the pros definitely outweigh the cons here. Overall, I love this little item and I sincerely recommend all you orgasm lovers to go out and purchase one. The link I listed above is for the regular body wand, but you can also find the mini body wand on that same website if you'd like to check it out. Here is a link: Body Wand Mini

If and when we get the bigger version of this, you can bet there will be a review of that one as well. ;D Thanks.

~*~Anastassia~*~

P.S. I promise this is my last post of the night. Sorry about spamming you all. Haha

Announcements For Followers and Lurkers. ♥

Hey everyone! Just wanted to drop a line to all of my followers and my lurkers. Thank you all so very much for taking the time to read what I have to say and for bringing a lot of traffic through here. I put in a lot of hard work into this not only for myself, but for you all as well.

I don't say it a whole lot, but I really do appreciate every single one of you and I'm thankful that so many people care about what I have going on in my life. Also, a huge thank you to those of you who have reached out to me and comforted me and have offered advice and encouraging words. You know who you are. ;D

One other thing before I end this, I have a poll up on the right side of my blog. Please take the time to vote on it and give me some feed back so I may make this blog just a little more better. As I said, I do this for my readers as well, so I want my readers to get the most out of my blog as they possibly can. 

Thanks everyone. Hope you all are having fun reading about my journey and I hope your lives are going well. Till next time. 

~*~Anastassia~*~

Spiritual, Emotional, and Physical Cleansing

I haven't really said much of anything to anyone lately due to my lack of enthusiasm and so forth. I don't recall if I've ever mentioned it before, but I have depression. I deal with it on a daily basis and for the most part, I am able to keep myself in check and keep it at bay.

For those of you who do not know, November 18th was mine and Master's anniversary. 4 years together now. Which is great. We spent our weekend exploring the sights and scenery of Hawks Nest and Fayetteville. We ate lunch at a nice little cafe called The Cathedral Cafe and the food was amazing. Sadly, nothing else too exciting happened that weekend. I digress.

Anyways, I had been fighting off a huge wave of depression I have felt coming on since October, but for some reason, around early November I just couldn't really fight it off any longer. I sank into a deep blue funk and (for the most part) kind of kept to myself. Something that is normal for me when I get depressed. I get quiet, I'm not talkative, I lack enthusiasm for most things, and because of this, I become somewhat of a hermit and distance myself from everyone. Including Master. Even my sex drive had depleted. 

Most of the time, I don't realize I'm doing it, and this was one of those cases. I knew I had been feeling down, but this was one of those times I didn't recognize the signs. I was so busy with work and school I had no time to focus on anything else. This was all brought to my attention by my best friend, Angel, who had noticed I was acting out of the norm and distant. That's when it clicked in my head and I explained everything to her. 

Not to mention going up to see my family on Thanksgiving did not make things better. In fact, it worked in quite the opposite manner. Like usual, upon seeing me, my family tells me I need to lose weight and tells me that I've "obviously been eating rather well" and so forth. Basically taking stabs at my weight. Nothing new. It also turns out that while Master was involuntarily volunteered for yard work by my family that my papaw was complaining that I didn't have my drivers license and took more stabs at me behind my back. So.. that just only made things worse.

By the time we got back to Master's house that evening, I was ready for a much nicer meal with His parents and talking to people who I knew were going to talk to me like I was human, not like I was scum or talk ill of me behind my back. That went well. So that was something to be thankful for.

After dinner was over, I proposed to play a card game, Phase 10, and immediately Master started saying "No." That He didn't want to. Not going to lie, I kind of pleaded Him, trying to coax Him to change His mind, but He proceeded to start complaining about the game and this was what seriously sent me over the edge.

Something so small and silly and on any other day I would have been like "Fine. I'll wait till another day." Sent me into a crying fit that lasted a good hour. And in my mind I felt like I could do nothing right and so forth. Depression at its finest right there...

Eventually we talked it out and after a phone call to Angel, who eased my mind a little better, I calmed down and was ready to find a way to fix this...

It's taken me a few days, but I've been able to work past some of the problems I've been having and yesterday I was finally tired of being sad all the time and down. So despite my physical feeling of not wanting to do anything, I tell Master that I want to change my life. I want to feel better about myself, mentally, physically, and emotionally. Especially physically because I'm tired of looking at myself in the mirror and feeling disgusted with the way I look. With how over weight I am, and then having my family basically point out every little flaw. 

So He suggested we do yoga. On the inside I wanted to just curl up and say "No.. lets do it tomorrow..." But I knew better and made the initiative. I asked to do that right on the spot and we ended up doing nearly an hour and a half of yoga last night. After it was over, I could already feel the stress and worry leave my body. I felt limber and free, and I had even worked up an appetite. For both food and sex (surprisingly).

After dinner, we came back up to His room and were laying on the bed cuddling. We haven't really been intimate with one another in what has felt like way too long so I was determined to change that. I positioned myself on top of Him, with His hips between my legs and leaned down to kiss Him softly on the lips. I ran my fingers through His hair, feeling the softness of his hair glide through my fingers as I lingered for more kisses. This didn't take very long before I got the reaction I was looking for, which was His cock hard and throbbing against me. 

He rolled me onto my back and sat atop of me, kissing me and caressing my breasts with His hands. I felt that familiar tingling sensation run through my body, letting me know that I was able to fully enjoy the moment without some sort of mental block getting in the way, like it has in the past. Master had got off of me and walked around to the side of the bed getting out the body wand we had purchased a week ago. (It's like a mini hitachi wand and it is magical lol). I begged for His cock, asking to have it fill my mouth, which I swiftly was awarded. 

I don't think I have ever sucked on His cock with as much enthusiasm as what I did last night before in our time together. Even Master was surprised as I took Him all the way into my throat without gagging. He quickly pulled out of me and put His hand under my chin to lift my head up so we could make eye contact. 

"I need you now, Anastassia. I need to use you." I attempted to suck on His cock some more and He pulled Himself away from me. 

"No, Anastassia. I need your cunt."

He got behind me and placed the tip of His cock against my cunt, and I didn't wait for Him to slip in. Instead, I pushed myself onto Him, eager for this attention I had been craving for days. During this union of our bodies, I felt so alive and so full of energy. I hadn't felt like this in weeks. Something triggered in me last night and even though He came inside of me and filled me up, I was left craving for more, yet very satisfied, none-the-less. 

I made a joke later on in the evening that sex can cure just about anything with me, but I'm thinking there may be some truth to that, even just a little because today I have felt great. My body is sore from the yoga we did last night, and the sex, but I feel revitalized and my mood and attitude is so much better. I feel so much better about myself and about my body, and I don't even really care right now that my family were dicks to be over the weekend. It's like I'm on a blissful cloud just floating along for the moment. Sadly, this won't remain like this forever, but I'm going to revel in the moment. I feel as if I deserve that at the very least.

~*~Anastassia~*~

Top 100 Sex Bloggers of 2012!

Hey! I forgot to post about this last year, but each year Rori from Between My Sheets posts a list of 100 bloggers. 

She leaves the 100th spot for those of us who didn't make the list because there are more awesome sex blogs out there. Visit the link above to check out all the amazing blogs. 

A huge thank you to her for making this list each year. ^.^

~*~Anastassia~*~

I'm Beautiful and You're Beautiful Too

I've been seeing a lot of posts and articles lately speaking of beauty and realizing one's own self-worth, but what I haven't seen is people talking about telling other's that they are just as beautiful too.

Let me explain.

See, everyone has their own self-esteem issues at some point in time, and I almost always hear "Look at yourself in the mirror and tell yourself you are beautiful just the way you are" or some variation of that. While this is great, and I strongly recommend that to everyone, stop and think for a moment. If you deserve to feel beautiful and good about yourself, why not the same for others? Say... even your partner?

Every day, at some point during the day, I do my best to make it a habit of telling Master that He is a beautiful person. And He is. I don't tell Him this just because I love Him, but because it is true. We deserve to treat ourselves with compliments, but our partners deserve that same respect as well. As does our family, and our friends, and even our enemies. (Some may disagree). But we all deserve to feel beautiful.

My point is, never stop believing and telling yourself that you are beautiful and that you have self-worth, but don't forget to remind your partners of this as well. Or anyone else you can think of. Nine times out of ten, it's just what someone needs to hear, whether you know it or not.

No matter if you are a male, female, intelligent, uneducated, heterosexual, homosexual, bisexual, pan-sexual, transsexual, a transvestite, hermaphrodite, monogamous, poly-amorous, unsure, tall, short, skinny, fit, overweight, underweight, African American, Caucasian, Asian, Indian, Mexican, etc etc. You are all beautiful in your own ways. Never forget that, and never forget to let those who are important to you know that you think they are just as beautiful as you. 

I know I sound like a total hippie, but spread the love people. There is too much hate and negativity in this world.  

~*~Anasassia~*~

"You Have to Let Me Help You."

Call it a low self-esteem, insecurity, or whatever you want to call it. Sometimes I have moments where I don't feel even close to sub-par, and it shows greatly. Last night was one of those nights.

Master and I were having a conversation in the car and somehow it escalated into an argument. Eventually I went quiet, as I sometimes do, and refused to speak. This led to more bad times and then more silence between the both of us. We sat in the car in front of His house for a good five minutes in silence. Eventually I got sick of it and did the one thing I could think of.

I got out of the car and started walking. I wasn't sure where I was going to walk off to, but I just wanted to walk. I didn't care that it was cold outside, or that I didn't have a jacket on. I just needed to get away from the deafening silence.

Master got out of the car and followed me down the street. I don't know why I do this sort of thing. I've done it before. Sometimes I just want to run away from everything, and I guess I'm literally doing just that when I walk off. Some hurtful words were spoken between us and before too long we were back at His house and crying together.

Eventually I broke down and said what I had been wanting to say for a long time.

"Master, how can you actually love me and want to be with me? I'm an abusive person. I say horrible things to you, I've smacked you before in the past. I've hit you. I know I've never left a mark, but I'm an abusive person to you."

"No you're not. You just act out of anger because that is all you have ever known."

I protested more saying that I didn't deserve Him. His response shouldn't have been a shock, but it was.

"Yes, you do deserve me. You've not had the best of a life, but I know that you do deserve it. You're truly a good person and you can change if you want to. I can help you."

"No.. you can't. There is no 'helping me'."

"Yes, there is, but you have to let me help you in order for that to happen. Whenever I tell you to turn around when you face away from me, or when I tell you stop when you walk away from me, you need to listen to me."

"I don't know if I can do that..."

"You can. You just need to be willing. Listen to me, and I'll help you. I will be here for you if you will just let me. If you truly want to change your ways, listen to what I have to say and follow my orders. I love you. You mean the world to me and you do deserve me."

Somehow.. this clicked with me. It made the tears stop. It made my fear disappear, and I felt like I was grounded again. I could breathe again. We held each other in a warm embrace against the cold and life felt clear again.

I do deserve Him, especially when I feel like I don't the most. He is the one thing that really keeps me sane and keeps me on track. He is the reason I work so hard to make myself better every day. He is the reason I have been able to remain calm and make those changes in my life.

I didn't really say anything else, but in my head I knew He was right. I just need to listen to Him, even when I don't want to. He knows what is best for me, and in order for me to get what is best in my life, I need to be willing to stop and listen to Him and follow His lead. Even if I'm unsure and weary. I need to learn to trust Him completely and not second guess His judgement.

Master knows what is best.

Today has been a lot better. We've gotten along great and I can feel last night's talk taking effect. I feel more stable at His side and I find it easier to listen to Him and follow what He tells me to do.

We were cleaning His room this evening and while He was cleaning around His t.v. He found something I made on one of those label makers:

I know this may seem silly, but I think this is a sign. It does hold some significance, so maybe this is a good sign that we found it today, right after having that talk last night.

Thank you, Master, for being so patient with me, so loving, so caring, and so understanding. Even when I seem so distant, and hateful. You've never once left my side, you've given me hope on life, and you've lifted me up when I was down and feeling like giving up on everything.

Thank you for being my solid ground and for kissing me and hugging me, despite my protests and struggling to push you away. Thank you for holding me tighter. Thank you, Master... for everything.

I love you, Sir.

Changes and Updates

I know I've been quiet for the last two weeks, but I've been extremely busy over here with school, homework, and my externship. 

Everything is going great over here. I think I've really impressed the people who are training me at the office I'm at and they tell me all the time of how big of a help I am around the office and how much they appreciate my hard work. My supervisor also seems really impressed with me lately as well. I asked for extra hours during Thanksgiving break and the look on her face told me that she hadn't expected that at all. She seemed very happy that I asked and immediately wrote me in for more hours. I'm hoping this initiative that I'm showing will show that I'm taking what she said seriously about me working hard so that we can talk about me possibly getting a full time job there.

So fingers are crossed with that one. Please pray for me guys. I really want and need this job. So please keep me in your thoughts and prayers.

Master and I are doing great as well. We're quickly coming up on our 4 year anniversary, so we're trying to make plans for the weekend of the 18th to do something fun and special. I think we pretty much have it covered, but I don't want to get my hopes up because sometimes plan change. 

Also, something else that is pretty cool and that I'm still trying to let sink in: apparently Master's father referred to me as his "future daughter-in-law" for the first time today. So.. that tells me that (at the very least) one parent is really starting to get it. That Master and I are dead serious about this relationship we have with one another. 

Now if we can only get that sort of thing out of His mother. *laughs*

Today has been great, though. It's been busy, but I have no complaints. One thing that has been going on with me is that Master has been really putting the "moves" on me, so to speak. Haha. Earlier this evening I had just sat down and was relaxing from my shift at the office and He came over to me

"Tilt your head to the side, Anastassia."

"Why?"

"Just do it."

I kind of protested a little as I tilted my neck, unsure of what was about to happen, when I suddenly saw the honey bottle in His hand. 

"Sir, what are you-?"

He held my head in His free hand and drizzled that honey on my neck. The look on my face was kind of like this --> -.- but then I felt His warm tongue against my neck and for some reason I immediately melted into the chair. A few moans escaped my lips and I felt like I was drunk. 

Sadly, the moment ended way too soon and I was kind of left here in a daze for a moment. 

Okay.. That was, admittedly, very hot and I did not react quite like I thought I would. I guess Master is just a magical kind of guy.

A little bit ago, He did something similar, but instead already had the honey in His mouth on his tongue. He pulled me in for a kiss and stuck His tongue in my mouth, twirling the honey between our tongues. I know it sounds a little gross, but this pretty much got the same reaction as before.

I'm a lucky woman. Better yet.. a very lucky slave.

~*~Anastassia~*~

Master's Whore

After waiting for what seemed like an eternity, Master and I finally have the house to ourselves this weekend. Yesterday was spent with friends at the MAsT meeting, and we even went over to Angel and Panda's place to hang out and stay the night there. 

Overall, I think things are okay between the four of us. There is still some slight awkwardness between Angel and I, but I think with time that will no longer be a problem. We just need time, which is understandable. We did exchange hugs a couple times during our visit, but for the most part we just talked about random stuff like usual. 

Honestly, I'm glad I got to see the two of them. I've missed them a lot and it was nice to spend an evening with them and we could all laugh, joke, and relax together. It was just what I think we all needed.

Today, though... today has been something else. It's almost felt like a dream. I kind of want to pinch myself repeatedly to see if I wake up or something. Allow me to back track a little bit before I explain.

Yesterday afternoon, after the MAsT meeting, we stopped over at The Lion's Den to get a couple of items. One in particular I've had my eyes on for literally months now. Nothing big, though. While we were there, we picked up two items. A new plug and a tweezer clamp for my clit. It even had a bell at the end of it. ^.^

This is the item I have been longing for. It may seem like nothing, but I have always desired to have a clamp on my clit that had a bell so that when I walked, Master and I could hear the soft jingling of the bell with each step I took. Needless to say, I made the perfect choice.

It has a little slider on it that can be adjusted to either loosen it or make it tighter. With little hesitation, I asked Master to get it pretty tight. I could feel it squeezing onto my clit, nice and snug, and with every step I took, it felt like it was tugging at my clit. Pulling on it and bring me closer to climax. I am in love with this simplistic item.

This new plug I also have fallen in love with. I love that the knot on it is a little bit bigger than the other one we have (not by much, though) and that the base is smaller, so it is easier to keep it in me for longer periods of time. 

Today was a day for explorations. Pushing my senses to the limits and then beyond. Words will not give justice to what happened today, but I'll do my best to explain.

Master took His time putting the clit clamp on me, making it nice and snug. He also inserted the new plug and it went it with such ease. Honestly, it's the more comfortable one of the two that we own. He took a few minutes to flick the bell dangling from my clit, which sent shivers of ecstasy through my body. It was such an intense feeling, but a very wonderful feeling at that. 

At that point, and idea (or two) crossed my mind and I thought to myself "Why not make this more fun?" Just yesterday I took out my nipple piercings and decided I really wanted to try playing with clamps again. It had been so long and I couldn't bare the wait any longer. A huge smile came across Master's face and He immediately scrambled about the kink bag to find out first pair of clamps. It took some getting used to, but the clamps were back on and I felt like I was almost "home" so to speak. The feeling of the chain dangling between my breasts and every small brush up against my nipples sent my head into a whir of sensations and body tingling chills. 

But that wasn't enough for me. I needed, no wanted, something more. So then I pleaded for the red ball gag and once that was latched around my head, there was just one more thing that needed to be done to make this complete. A good lashing on my ass. 

Because this was the first time we had ever done anything like this, we kind of took it slow today, but it did the trick. Master got out one of the crops we own and started an even paced thwacking against my bare bottom and my back. All of the sensations were amazing. Two of my holes were stuffed, I was drooling all over the bed, the clamps on my nipples and clit were swaying back and forth, tugging on me, and I distinctly heard that soft jingling noise that somehow heightened my senses ever more.

After several minutes of me taking a decent beating, I knew what was about to happen next, and I was craving for it with every last fiber of my being. Master pushed Himself against me from behind and pressed His body against mine. 

"I'm going to fuck you like this."

I maid a muffled sound through the gag in my mouth, insinuating I was ready for Him. 

Slowly, He pushed Himself inside of me. It was a snug fit with the plug still in me, but once my body got used to the feeling everything relaxed and we were able to get into a very steady motion of Him rocking in and out of me. 

At one point He leaned in close and whispered in my ear with that deep "dom voice" of His, "How does it feel, you whore? Having all three of your holes filled up?"

I melted onto Him. I'm not sure why, but this triggered something in me and I just wanted more. Before too long, our bodies completely synced up together and be both came with one another. I could feel His cum dripping out of me and around the plug. It was such a delicious feeling and sent me into a state of complete calm. 

We finally cleaned ourselves up and I took care of the toys and cleaned them with hot water and alcohol and put them away. After all, it is my duty to clean all the toys when we are done. I really don't know what got into us today, but I hope there is a lot more in store for us for stuff like this in the future. I can't wait to see what else happens. 

Hope everyone has been having a wonderful weekend.

~*~Anastassia~*~