Good-bye 2012 and Hello 2013!

This year has had its ups and downs for me and Master, but as always we have pulled through even the hardest of times and have always risen from our hardships as stronger people. I'd like to take a moment to look back at all of the great things that have happened to me and even take a look at the things that weren't so great, but made me a stronger person in the end.

I'd like to do things a little different this time around, though. Usually I list the good stuff first and the bad stuff last, but I want to flip it around because I'd rather end this on a high note as it is always best to look at the positive last. So on with the events of this past year.

The Not So Good:

1. In April of this year I was hit with a double whammy in which I landed myself in the hospital with an unknown illness that was causing my kidney's to fail. Talk of dialysis became something that was an every day thing and it was hard not to cry and panic. Because of this I missed a whole week of work and school
2. That same week a beloved friend of Master's family and grand father like person to me passed away due to lung cancer. It was one of the hardest weeks of this year, but it was his death that encouraged me to get well and keep my head up.
3. This occurred in October, but as some of you know I was in a poly relationship of a sort with Angel and due to circumstances it had to come to an end. I took it really hard, and possibly harder than I should have, but I think it is safe to say that I will probably never attempt another poly relationship. It's not because it was a bad experience, because it was nothing but a positive one, I just don't think I'll ever make a connection with someone else like I did with her, and I don't think poly is quite for me. Regardless, there is good that came out of this. Though things are still a tad awkward between us, at least we are still friends and I couldn't really ask for much else than that. So I'm very thankful.

Overall I feel as if I have been really put to the test this year with my health, be it physical and mental health. I  have had to deal with a lot of stress and hardships, but the most important part is that I have come out on top and I feel I've become a better person for it.

The Good:

1. I have learned to have a lot of patience over the past year and every day I am slowly growing more into the person I wish to be.
2. Master and I have celebrated our fourth anniversary this year and our relationship is only gotten deeper and more meaningful than it has ever been.
3. I quit my retail job and said good-bye to a load of stress that has been looming over my head for the last two and half years. I don't like the having no money part, but Master and I have pushed through this and we are doing better than expected.
4. I have made a lot of new friends this year and even grew closer to some friends who have become an important part of my life.
5. I graduated from college and am now officially a Medical Assistant.
6. I have gained a new found confidence in myself and my life. I feel more successful with my accomplishments and I am no longer afraid to openly admit that I am a great person and hold my head high with the confidence I deserve.
7. Master's family has been more welcoming to me this year and I can really feel connections beginning with them.
8. Master's report card this time around was nothing but great and simply a wonderful bit of news that all of us were hoping for. 
9. My blog has been receiving thousands upon thousands of views each month and I have even gained quite a few new followers, whom I'm ever so thankful for and excited about.
10. Most of all, I have learned. I have learned so many new things about life, about the medical field, and about how to love and serve my Master better. I am more sure of myself than I was this time last year, and I know what I want out of life and I know how I want my life to be. I am more knowledgeable than I was last year, and that is something to be very thankful for.

I want to thank all of you wonderful people for following me, for lurking, and for talking to me. You all have given me so much support this year and have made me so happy in my times of need. I am always glad to share my life with all of you, and I'm thankful that you all are interested in what I have to say. 

Here is to wishing all of you a Happy New Year and may 2013 be a better year for all of us.

~*~Anastassia~*~

P.S. The poll is closed and the votes are in. The majority voted that they wanted to see more toy reviews and talk of my kinks this year, so as a resolution for my blog, I plan to do just that and give my followers exactly what they want. Thank you for voting and participating in my poll!

Merry Christmas!!

Sorry I haven't been blogging much lately, with the holidays around, life has been really busy over here and I've barely had any time to get on my computer. Or any computer for that matter. I just wanted to stop by really quick to wish everyone a Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays before I headed out to see more family this morning. I hope everyone has been having a great time with their loved ones and hopefully I'll see you all again before next year! Haha

Take care!

~*~Anastassia~*~

Toy Review Saturday: Icicles!

Hello everyone! This is my third Saturday in a row of doing toy reviews. I hope everyone has been enjoying them, and if you have any suggestions, please feel free to post them in the comments.

Today's review will be of the two icicles that I own. Both are similar in size and shape, hence why I'm doing both of them in one go. 

The one here on the left is actually the first icicle we ever purchased. I love the ridges around the whole length of it. It gives amazing sensations and is easy to use. The one on the right is our second purchase of the icicles. It's a little bit smaller, but has those same ridges, just in pink! (I love pink) 

The pink one also is slightly hooked at the top for use of a G-spot massager. It is wonderful and really reaches that spot very well. The pink one also comes with a vibrating pill that can be inserted into that loop at the bottom so that it can vibrate. The vibrator has 10 different setting on it as well. Something I really love about both of these, though is that they can be put in the freezer to chill to give cold sensations during insertion, or if you do not like cold, this can also be dipped in warm water for a while so that it can warm to nice temperatures. After all, it is made out of glass, so it can be versatile. 

Pros: 

1. Ribbed (for pleasure! lol)
2. The pink one has the G-spot massager
3. Can be put in the fridge/freezer to chill
4. Can be placed in warm water to warm it up.
5. Made of thick glass so it's not easy to break.
6. The pink icicle comes with that vibrating pill that has 10 settings on it.

Cons: 

1. It is glass so it does not have any give, as say a silicone toy may have.

I hope you all enjoyed this review!Have a great weekend!

Also, before I end this post, Master and I purchased the body wand this evening, so there will definitely be a post about that here in about a week or so. ;D

~*~Anastassia~*~

It's Over... At Least For Now.

Well, for those of you who have been following me for quite some time now, my finals are over and so is my schooling. I am now a Medical Assistant, and after April when I take my Certification Exam, I will be fully certified. 

Final grades are in and I have three A's and one B on my final report card. I'm definitely okay with this and I'm just happy that this is all over. At least for now. 

To clarify, I don't plan on stopping here. I have been throwing it in my head of what the next step I wanted to take is, and my decision is final. I wish to become a Physician's Assistant. Pretty much I will be one step below an actual doctor, doing just about the same things a doctor does. I don't know how long it will be before I can finally reach this goal, but I plan on getting it done before I die, if the fates grant it. 

So as this chapter in my life come to a close, all I can think of is just feeling extremely accomplished and ready to move on to the next thing in my life. I have so much I want to do, and it feels like I have very little time, but I have faith that everything will work out and my goals will be met.

Thank you to everyone who gave me well wishes and cheered me on. It has meant so much to me, and I hope I can continue sharing my journey with all of you. Take care!

~*~Anastassia~*~

CWS Challenge 3 & 4

So I'm a little behind on the challenges, therefore I'm putting these two together. They seem to practically go hand in hand anyways.

Challenge #3: Write about what is going through your mind while you are sucking cock.

Honestly, the biggest portion of the time when I am sucking on Master's cock, the only thing going through my head is trying my best to please Him. I always focus on Him 100% when going down on Him and I give Him my undivided attention. I'm so focused on pleasing Him that nothing else seems to matter. I want nothing more than to make Him feel amazing and to make Him cum. He is all that matters while I give Him a blow job.

Challenge #4: Make an ecard about blow jobs.

~*~Anastassia~*~

Play Party Fun and A New Hat

Last night was Master's birthday (WOO!) and He decided it would be okay to spend it with friends at a play party. We met quite a few new faces and even saw some old ones. It was like a big family reunion with lots of naked people and lots of kink action packed into one night. We had great food in the midst of amazing company. 

I didn't do a whole heck of a lot of playing, but Master and I did start off our night with a beating scene.

During the beating that had ensued, I remember drifting off into my own little world and slowly the sounds of chatter and excitement from others around us had disappeared and I could barely hear anything at all. All I could hear was my own whimpers barely escaping the ball gag in my mouth, the sound of the crop swinging down on my bare bottom and I faintly felt my own drool trickling down on my arms.

I was truly in a head space all of my own and it wasn't until the beating stopped that I snapped out of it. I took my blind fold off and looked at the table I was lying on and that was when I noticed just how much I had drooled all over myself and the table. It was literally everywhere. I don't think I have ever drooled that much during a scene ever before. 

After the initial shock was over, I sat down on my butt and that was when I felt the stinging pain jolt through me. I reached around to touch myself and I felt actual welts on me. I've never really had welts (that I can remember) so this really made my evening. A huge smile crept across my face and a friend of mine nearby started laughing at me. She said it was cute how I drooled more and more and that I was so excited to have welts on my ass.

After a little bit of after care and cleaning off the space we used, I ventured around the room to talk to some friends and meet some new ones. Panda and Angel had showed up to this party and with them they brought the hat that Angel had knitted for me herself. 

Isn't it cute?! ^.^ Purple is one of my favorite colors and she definitely did not disappoint. Which I had no doubts anyways. (If you want a hat like this, check out her etsy shop. She does amazing work and has very good prices. She also knits other things too, so click the link above and see what selection she has).

After talking with them, I ventured over to watch some friends doing fire play on one another, and I could not resist having that done on me as well. After they were finished, I asked my friend if she could perform fire play on me as well, as we had never been able to play with fire together, and thankfully she agreed to it. 

I'm telling you.. she is amazing. That is not to dispute that Master isn't great either, but she is just great. It's like she is using the fire as her paint brush and the human body as her canvas to create a wonderful work of art. I had so much fun lying there as she drummed on my body with the fire wands. Fire play is absolutely one of my favorite things in the kink world and I can never get enough of it.

I have no idea how much time had passed, but by the time she was done, I thanked her and Master and I packed our things and left. We had grown very tired and Master was about ready to crash. 

This morning we slept in a little bit, and sure enough, I still have a few welts left on my ass from last night's beating. So I'm pretty much beaming with pride over here.

I hope everyone had a great weekend, but now it's time for me to get back to studying for finals. Take care you lovely people!! <3

~*~Anastassia~*~

Toy Review Saturday: Horse Hair Grass Flogger

This particular toy right here was made for Master and I by a friend of ours. It may not look like much, but this can be used as a stingy type toy, and it can also be used as a tickler. The amount of sting really matters on how fast and hard you swing. In my opinion, this can be used on anyone who likes just about any level of sting type pain. Honestly, I find this toy very relaxing when being hit with it.

 

My favorite thing about this particular flogger is that it can be used to enhance sensations. For example: Master likes to use this on me after He's beaten me with a crop. So this flogger, when hit by it after getting a nice spanking or beating prior, can enhance the pain and thus causes a bit more of a stinging sensation. It is deliciously stingy and I love it.

As I said before, it can also be used as a tickler, so taking it and gently sliding it over the body can cause a nice tickling sensation as well. Which I also find relaxing and a good add to foreplay. 

There is some slight maintenance to this toy, as it is made with horse hair grass. We have to use a particular type of oil on the grass to keep it from drying out and becoming brittle. The good part about that is that only has to be done a couple times out of the year, and it doesn't take a lot of oil to maintain it. 

So now on to the pros and cons list to finish the up! ^.^

Pros:

1. This flogger is versatile and can be used for stinging pain and for a soft tickling sensation.
2. The flogger is a very light toy and is easy to swing.
3. Can be used with other toys to enhance sensations.
4. Very low maintenance. Only requires oil 2 - 3 times out of a year.

Cons: None

Truthfully, I have no complaints about this toy what-so-ever. It was a wonderful gift from a friend and I hope this toy lasts us a lifetime. ^.^

~*~Anastassia~*~ 

CWS Challenge #2: I Know I'm About to Suck His Cock...

Spanky's second challenge is to write 55 words on when we know we're about to suck on a cock. So as I promised to not be a disappointment and do these challenges, here is my entry on this.

His hand grasped my chin and gently pulled my head up to look into His piercing eyes. "I know you want it, slave. Beg."
I persistently did so, not only did I plead with my words, but with my eyes and body as well. With the slide of His zipper, I knew I had won my prize.

So that is 57 words. Guess I'm a little of an over achiever, then. lol

To see the other entries from CWS, check out this link and see what everyone else had to say. ^.^ 

Not going to lie this was a little challenging for me as I tend to type in a lot of details and filler words, and this made me actually think so that I could get the point across a lot faster and in a simpler way. Thanks to Spanky for posting this challenge, and a thank you to Kitty the Submissive Wife who was the one to have come up with this idea.

~*~Anastassia~*~

Toy Review Saturday: "The Loop"

So I'm starting a new segment of my blog where each Saturday I will review a toy Master and I own, hence the title of this post! 

Today, I'm reviewing a hitting implement we call "the loop". We don't really know the name of this item as we bought it from a vendor at a party we went to back in March of this year, so the shape of this item is why we gave it this name.

I love getting spanked and whipped, so this item really gives me everything I want when it comes to a hitting implement. It is a solid mix between a thud and a sting. The initial bite of this toy against my flesh is something to be delighted if you love pain. It's one of my favorite toys and it's especially fun to be on the receiving end when Master hits me with this out of nowhere. 

Don't let this fool you, though, it can pack a wallop if you can swing hard enough. This toy is not recommended for those who don't like a mix of thuddy and stingy pain, and it is not for those who prefer light pain. It really takes a pain slut (in my opinion) to handle a beating from this toy, because with each hit, it hurts more and more. 

Here is a picture of the type of marks this toy leaves. ^.^ We tested it out on me this afternoon just for this post. So these marks are still on my bottom, and my bottom is still warm.

Pros: 

1. This is a really fantastic toy if you love pain.
2. There is an even feeling of sting and thud mixed into this toy when being hit by it.
3. It's small and easy to store/hide.
4. Easy to make if you want to make one yourself. Just use plasti-dip for the handle and nylon coated wire rope.

Cons:

1. Not recommended for those who enjoy light pain over heavy pain. 

So there you have it! ^.^

~*~Anastassia~*~

Why I Love Sucking Cock

I just recently (as of this morning) became a member of Cock Worshipping Subs and Spanky has asked that as a member if I could do the challenges listed if I wanted to, and of course I want to! Cause what else is better than talking about cock worshipping and cock sucking? ^.^

So as you all should know, I love sucking on Master's cock and that is something I've never been modest about. But in my opinion, what goes better with a post about cock sucking than a picture of me sucking Master's cock? 

Check out those Guinness boxers! ;D

I love sucking on Master's cock because of many reason's. Most of all, I love it because of the pleasure I bring Master. Hearing His moans and sighs while sucking on His cock gives me the tingles and turns me on more than anything. I love the way He holds my head and pulls on my hair, guiding me as I take all of Him into my mouth. I love that I can suck on His cock so well that He can't help but to thrust deep into my throat, fucking my mouth with as much force as He possibly can. 

The greatest pleasure I get from sucking His cock, though, is making Him cum. I always know I have done a great job sucking Him off when I can make Him cum with just my mouth only, and that is a certain type of pride I hold dear. 

Overall, even though it is a huge turn on for me to be sucking and worshipping Master's cock, I do it more for Him than I do it for myself. His pleasure is my pleasure, and that is why I love sucking cock. 

~*~Anastassia~*~