Thursday, February 2, 2012

30-Day BDSM Challenge: Day 3

How did you discover you were kinky?


Oh man! I was really anticipating this one, and I'm pretty excited to talk about this particular moment! ^.^


When I first discovered I was kinky, I was about 12-13 years old. I remember my friend and I hanging out at my place one afternoon after school, and I had an odd thought come to mind. "Hey! I wonder if I can escape bondage in a certain amount of time!" So I asked my friend to tie my wrists to my bed posts with some scarfs as tight as she could and time me to get out of it!


It took me a few minutes, but I was finally free and we both really didn't think much of it. Just a little bit of fun. However, that evening, I couldn't stop thinking about it. The feeling of almost helplessness as I struggled from being bound and tied up. That night, I ended up masturbating to the thought of being like that, and having a guy suck on my nipples and torturing me. I never told anyone about it, and this is actually the first time I'm opening up about it.


For a couple of years I thought it was odd, but about age 15 my curiosity got the best of me and I started doing some research online. I wondered if these things and thoughts were normal. Before too long, I was looking at all these bondage sites and realizing that other people were like me. Other people loved rough sex, and other people wanted to do the same things I wanted to do. People were actually doing things I had been day dreaming about for the past few years, and they were having fun with it! That was possibly the most exciting day of my life. (At that time)


At any rate that is my experience and how I figured out I was kinky. Perhaps it was a little too young for me to figure that sort of thing out, but you know.. I knew things that would blow most 13 years old's minds. So~ yeah. Not really proud of that, but we figure things like this out at some of the weirdest times. 


~*~Anastassia~*~

2 comments:

  1. Very interesting story! I always think it's interesting, seeing how other people discovered their kinks...

    As for being too young--don't worry about it. God, I was 6 or 7 when I started having slave fantasies (not *sexual* ones, obviously, but daydreaming about being owned and such), and I've seen others that have placed it at really young ages, too...so I say there's nothing wrong with 12 or 13 ^_^

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  2. I think it's pretty interesting too.

    6 or 7 at having fantasies of being owned? Damn! You were way ahead of me! XD I started having fantasies like that shortly after discovering kink. Nice. lol

    I really had no idea people were feeling these things at younger ages. Kind of makes me feel a little better and secure about it. ^.^;

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