Monday, June 13, 2011

To New Memories and New Beginnings.

The reason I have titled it this way is because I'm going to compile the two biggest events from the last four days into one entry. So it's kind of a tribute to the new things happening in my life and the fun that I am starting to have again with not only my Master, but with some dear friends of ours as well.

Friday evening was the first time that Master and I got to see our beloved friends Angel and Panda. We hadn't seen them in months due to schedules clashing, health problems not only from Angel, but from myself as well and just things happening that would interrupt any plans that had been made. By the way things were looking we could never tell when we'd ever be able to see each other again. It sucked.

Luckily for all of us, Friday came and everything worked out as planned! Except Master and I were about 30 minutes late of getting there. >.< Sorry again. We met up at Angel and Panda's place, talked, sat around, played some board games as usual, but there was something missing... I finally was not getting beat on due to Angel's instigating routines. Not that it's a bad thing Instead, it was I who got to dish out the beatings for once thanks to Panda. 

Talk about sweet revenge, "out of love" that is. Haha

You can see the damage I did to her behind here in her blog entry. 

It was.. interesting to say the least. I never thought I would really get any "revenge" on her to begin with, nor did I ever really plan it, despite the idle playful "threats" I made of "Paybacks a bitch" and "Just you wait, I'll get you back some day." *Giggles* It was basically me just joking around and making it seem like I'd really try to get back at her. In all honesty, I didn't mind the fact that she'd sway my Master's mind into beating on me while in the middle of their living room, and to an extent, I actually enjoyed it. No, I was not aroused! Weirdo's! Lol But it was a lot of fun and it always made for an interesting memory that I would treasure for the rest of my life.

Anyways, back to the story. Panda eventually led me into their room to show me the choices of floggers and canes that He would let me use on His property, Angel. 

I capitalize Panda's name and the use of "His" and "Him" when talking about Him because in my belief, it is a sign of respect that I wish to show in my writing. I respect Panda, and I believe that because of the level of respect I have for Him, He deserves the same type of courtesy I show towards my own Master when I speak of Him on here or anywhere else. That's just how I am. I hope I have not confused anyone here. 

I yelled out some failed attempts of trying to get Angel a little riled up or nervous by saying things like "Oooh~ This is going to hurt!" Of course, I don't think it phased her one, single bit. The first time I did anything to her that night, she had just been bent over the table and I had taken one of the many canes that Panda has hand made and used that on her. By the time we were in their bedroom finding other things to use on her, she was blind folded and gagged while still across the table. 

Everything was kind of a blur for me, because honestly.. this is the first time I've literally dished out the kind of blows that I gave to her. I had NEVER done this sort of thing to anyone before and it was an experience in and of itself. Not going to lie, I was in a daze. I didn't know what to expect, and I sure as hell didn't want to hurt her too terribly bad. She is my friend and I'd never forgive myself if I were to permanently damage her.

I remember by this point, her butt was already a little red from the blows she took from me from the cane I used on her, so I knew that it wasn't going to be too much longer until she was going to decide she had had enough. What shocked me, though, was the fact that she let me do it for as much as what she did. I mean.. once Panda got out that bamboo slapper, I was almost relentless. I know I hit her pretty hard with it, and while it was mostly on purpose, because even Panda and Angel herself said that it was okay, I was still worried. 

That first loud crack was AWESOME. Sorry Angel!!! It was so damn loud, and I think it might have shocked Angel a little too. Seemed like it, maybe I'm wrong. I know it shocked me though. I want one! lol

I knew that it had to hurt to some degree, judging by the way she moved and the sound she made, and I'm sure it was a little lame for me to keep saying that I was sorry, but I couldn't help it. I'm not great at topping! And this is mainly why. I know I'd be too gentle. I really don't like causing people too much pain. Plus almost after every blow I was saying "I'm Sorry!" or "Are you okay?!" 

It's cause I care!

At any rate, Panda and I had teamed up on her and He was taking their jump rope flogger to her back, while I took one of the belt floggers He made to her bottom. We kept alternating between blows. First Him, then I would hit her right after Him. It was like a metronome system gone off whack and now had two ticks instead of one. It was my idea! I was kind of glad that Panda thought it was a good idea too. I felt victorious! Lol 

Eventually, she had had enough and it was time to stop bullying her for the night. Of course, I didn't get off so easy, as Master finally took the new cane that Panda had made for us Thank you again!! It's so awesome! to my bottom and swatted me with it a couple of times. So I got a little bit of punishment myself, but nowhere near as much as what had happened to Angel. 

Is it weird that this STILL blows my mind? This was like.. 3 days ago. I have a feeling she's going to get me back some day. It may be weeks from now, even months! But I just have this sneaking feeling. BRING IT! <3 I can take it. =P

It was just really nice to see them once again, hang out for a few hours, play games, relax, have fun, and have a little bit of a kinky session in. These two.. They are just some of the most amazing people that I have ever met in my life, and I am blessed to have them in my life as well. Really, they are closest people to me besides Master, Himself. They mean the world to me, and I pray that we all have a wonderful friendship ahead and that we will all keep growing together as the great friends we are. I could go on all day on how much they mean to not only myself, but to my Master as well. We love them with all our hearts.

Now. On to the REALLY BIG NEWS that has me so excited and happy today, that I hope will be the beginning of a new and better life ahead of me. Not only for myself, but for Master, and the family we plan on having together in the future as well. 

Lately, I have been trying to focus more on getting myself into school so I can get a degree in Medical Assisting. Medical science is my favorite science category, and even though it's been a few years since my Anatomy class I took back in high school, I still have retained most of the knowledge I gained from that class and I hold it VERY dear to me. Seriously. If there is one thing that is my forte in life, it is my knowledge and my passion for medical science.

Today, I called up a local college that I know is giving classes for medical assisting and the phone call couldn't have gone any better! The admin wants me in his office tomorrow at 3pm to set up my FAFSA and to get me enrolled for classes that start on the 27 of this month. That is two weeks away from now! TWO WEEKS! 

I really can not wait and I hope that this will lead me in the right direction. I really want to work in the medical field and I really want to be able to afford nice things and to make sure that I can hep take care of my Master and our children. I want my family to have the most comfortable life possible. I really am praying hard that this will solve most of my life problems. Just.. I really need this to work.

I'm ready for this step, I'm ready to be more responsible of the things going on in my life. I'm ready to study my ass off, get as close to perfect grades possible, and I'm ready to put forth 120% of my effort to get myself somewhere in life.

More updates will be made tomorrow, hopefully, on what is about to happen. Please God, help me with this change and help me make this possible!



  1. lol, nope, it's not weird that you're still all mind-blowy over the whole experience...Trust me, I am too--I've never been beaten like that by anyone who wasn't Panda, so it was an experience for me, a good way! I still thought you were a pretty good Top ^_^

    As for my never know...bwahaha ^_^

    We love you guys, and we're so glad you had as much fun as we did!

    As for the school thing, I hope everything goes well! Please keep me updated! You'll be in our prayers!

    ~Lots of love~ Bre

  2. You never fail to make me smile, Bre. =) Lol well I trust your sense of judgement and even though I think I was a little too shaky with the whole thing I still think I could have done better. =P

    I will be sure to post updates and I'll send you a text tomorrow evening of any news I may have. =)

    Love you!

  3. Good luck with the schooling! (PS - that news is awesome, I bounced and squeeed for you) If you ever need a hand/tutor in anything medical, come find me. I've done more hours in the medical world than I'd care to admit.


  4. Thanks Certari!! I will definitely hit you up sometime! ^.^