Dom, sub, switch? What parts of BDSM interest you? Give us an interesting in-depth definition of what that means to you. Basically define your kinky self for us.
First off, I define myself as a slave, but for this particular question, I will go with submissive. As for what parts of BDSM that interest me, a lot of it does. Currently I am living an M/s lifestyle with my Master, but I do find other lifestyles within BDSM very interesting. I will admit not every lifestyle is for everyone. For example, some people find that the DD/lg (Daddy Dom/ little girl) lifestyle works best for them, but that would never work out for me or my Master. However, I do enjoy talking to people who live lifestyles like this and learning new things. ^.^
To me, being submissive means submitting oneself to a Master/Dominant. It means finding fulfillment in submitting to one's partner and serving them because it is was makes them happy. I serve my Master because I am a lot happier this way, plus seeing Him happy is also another huge plus for me, and we both benefit from it. I make His life easier, and I also reap rewards by seeing Him happy, and sometimes I actually DO get rewarded, depending on what I do.
Again, this is my personal feelings towards being submissive to my Master. Some people may feel similar and others may not feel this way at all. That is just the purpose of submission with my relationship.
~*~Anastassia~*~
Tuesday, January 31, 2012
30-Day BDSM Challenge: An Introduction
A came across this blog challenge a little bit ago and I thought to myself: "Why not?" I had been trying to think of something to write lately anyways, so what better things to write about on a blog that is meant for kink and kink related things?! =D Whoever this woman is, I am thankful she shared this, and I am pretty excited to get started on it myself. ^.^
For those of you who, for some reason, can not get the link to work (though it works for me) I'm a copying and pasting directly from the link the 30 Day Challenge questions below. Feel free to do these yourselves! ^.^
For those of you who, for some reason, can not get the link to work (though it works for me) I'm a copying and pasting directly from the link the 30 Day Challenge questions below. Feel free to do these yourselves! ^.^
The questions I will be answering are:
- Dom, sub, switch? What parts of BDSM interest you? Give us an interesting in-depth definition of what that means to you. Basically define your kinky self for us.
- List your kinks.
- How did you discover you were kinky?
- Any early experiences that, in retrospect, hint at your kinks?
- What was your first kinky sexual experience? If you haven’t had one yet, talk about what you hope to have happen.
- Describe your weirdest/most interesting sexual fantasy.
- What’s your favorite toy?
- Post a kinky image you find erotic.
- Post a kink related song or music video you enjoy.
- What are your hard limits?
- What are your views on the ethics of kink?
- Tell us about a humorous BDSM/kink experience you’ve had. If you haven’t had one, talk about aspects of kink/BDSM you find funny.
- Explain as best you can what the appeal of kink/BDSM is to you? Why are you drawn to what you’re drawn to?
- How would you say real life BDSM/kink varies from fantasy BDSM/kink? If you haven’t experienced real life BDSM/kink how do you think it might differ?
- Write about a BDSM/kink activity you’re curious about and would like to try.
- What are the most difficult aspects of having a sexuality that involves kink or BDSM for you personally?
- What misconception about kinky people would you most like to clear up?
- Any kinky/BDSM pet peeves? If so, what are they?
- Any unexpected ways kink has improved your life? If so, what are they?
- Talk about something within kink/bdsm that you’re curious about/don’t understand.
- Favorite BDSM related book (fiction or non-fiction)
- What do you think is important in keeping a BDSM relationship healthy? How does it differ from a vanilla relationship?
- Since you first developed an interest in kink, have your interests/perspectives changed? How so?
- What qualities do you look for in a partner?
- How open are you about your kinks?
- What’s your opinion on online BDSM play?
- Do your non-kink interests ever find their way into your kinky activities? If so, how?
- How do you dress for kink/BDSM play? What significance does your attire have to you?
- Do you have a BDSM title (e.g. mistress, master, slut, pig, whore, princess, goddess, ma’am, sir)? What is your opinion of the use of titles in general?
- Whatever BDSM/kink related thing you want to write about.
Stay tuned for my first entry! ^.^
~*~Anastassia~*~
Saturday, January 28, 2012
Re-establishing Dominance
Last night was the first night in weeks that Master and I were actually able to spend time alone in an empty house. Masters parents are out of town this weekend, so we have the place to ourselves. Lately we have been trying to work things out in our relationship, which also included less moments of me getting away with things when it is necessary for punishment.
I had mentioned to Master last night that we should talk about progress, and He suddenly ordered me to take off my pants. Reluctantly, I did so and stretched myself out on the bed with my bottom facing up. He rummaged around in the closet for a short while and came out with the cane. Upon seeing it, my heart sunk. I hate the cane because it is typically used for one thing, which is punishment, and it hurts really bad.
"Today while Mike was over earlier you cussed 22 times alone."
I tried protesting it, but that failed to get me anywhere, really. Instead I got swatted on my bottom several times with the cane. After the second swat, it started hurting pretty bad, but despite the pain, I kind of wanted it to hurt and I wanted Him to hit me a little harder. He stopped after several hard thwacks and said:
"Last weekend, you punched me in the stomach."
"I said I was sorry for that! It wasn't on purpose!"
"I know, and that is good, but you still need to be taught a lesson. Also, you forgot to ask permission to sit down several times today."
He began hitting my already sore bottom again. I honestly have no idea how many times He hit me with the cane last night, but I'm sure it was well over 30 times. After administering punishment, He leaned over and spoke into my ear
"Now, are you sorry for the things you've done?"
"Yes... Sir.." I managed to quietly speak out.
"I want to hear in a full sentence what you are sorry for."
It took me a second, but I finally spoke back, "I'm sorry for cussing, punching you in the stomach, and for sitting down without asking for permission...."
Silence. I knew what He was waiting to hear so I spoke again. ".. Sir."
"Good girl."
For a while I laid on the bed, bottom still exposed, and relaxed while Master ran His fingers over the welts that formed from the punishment I just endured. For some reason, when Master takes control, even if He has punished me, I get really turned on by it, and suddenly I was wanting His cock more than ever. I raised my hips off the bed, pushing myself closer to Master, in hopes He would try to take advantage of me. At first, it seemed like He was ignoring me, but finally He dipped one of His fingers into my soaking wet cunt, and I arched my back a little. He toyed with me for a little bit before we finally ended up having sex.
We took a little break to get some dinner and let our stomachs settle. Shortly after dinner we got ourselves in the shower. I always enjoy taking showers with Master, even if I don't always act like it. Even better, I love when we get to clean one another, though I think Master enjoys cleaning me off more than anything, considering every time He cleans my cunt, He always takes time to toy with my clit and such. I think He just likes playing with me, period. Another thing He really seems to love is blow jobs while in the shower as well. It was so pleasing to hear His moans, and I loved the praise I received from Him as well...
"You know you're an adorable little cock sucker, right?"
Things like that make me so happy. ^.^
After the shower, we came back to His room where we spent tangled up in one another. Master remained in control all night last night, and He even forced me to have several orgasms that made it very difficult for me to stand up. One thing is for sure, I think my clit is bruised from all the "abuse" that I was forced to endure. Hahahaha... Worth it.
Plus, Master is training me to cum when He says a certain word. This sort of thing takes time, but I think it's going pretty well. ^.^ Sure lots of things that happened last night were sexual, but throughout the day, Master has definitely been showing that He is trying really hard to maintain that balance. Even today He still seems to be in this mood, which I am perfectly fine with, I only hope that this weekend continues to go well.
Hope everyone has a fun weekend too.
~*~Anastassia~*~
I had mentioned to Master last night that we should talk about progress, and He suddenly ordered me to take off my pants. Reluctantly, I did so and stretched myself out on the bed with my bottom facing up. He rummaged around in the closet for a short while and came out with the cane. Upon seeing it, my heart sunk. I hate the cane because it is typically used for one thing, which is punishment, and it hurts really bad.
"Today while Mike was over earlier you cussed 22 times alone."
I tried protesting it, but that failed to get me anywhere, really. Instead I got swatted on my bottom several times with the cane. After the second swat, it started hurting pretty bad, but despite the pain, I kind of wanted it to hurt and I wanted Him to hit me a little harder. He stopped after several hard thwacks and said:
"Last weekend, you punched me in the stomach."
"I said I was sorry for that! It wasn't on purpose!"
"I know, and that is good, but you still need to be taught a lesson. Also, you forgot to ask permission to sit down several times today."
He began hitting my already sore bottom again. I honestly have no idea how many times He hit me with the cane last night, but I'm sure it was well over 30 times. After administering punishment, He leaned over and spoke into my ear
"Now, are you sorry for the things you've done?"
"Yes... Sir.." I managed to quietly speak out.
"I want to hear in a full sentence what you are sorry for."
It took me a second, but I finally spoke back, "I'm sorry for cussing, punching you in the stomach, and for sitting down without asking for permission...."
Silence. I knew what He was waiting to hear so I spoke again. ".. Sir."
"Good girl."
For a while I laid on the bed, bottom still exposed, and relaxed while Master ran His fingers over the welts that formed from the punishment I just endured. For some reason, when Master takes control, even if He has punished me, I get really turned on by it, and suddenly I was wanting His cock more than ever. I raised my hips off the bed, pushing myself closer to Master, in hopes He would try to take advantage of me. At first, it seemed like He was ignoring me, but finally He dipped one of His fingers into my soaking wet cunt, and I arched my back a little. He toyed with me for a little bit before we finally ended up having sex.
We took a little break to get some dinner and let our stomachs settle. Shortly after dinner we got ourselves in the shower. I always enjoy taking showers with Master, even if I don't always act like it. Even better, I love when we get to clean one another, though I think Master enjoys cleaning me off more than anything, considering every time He cleans my cunt, He always takes time to toy with my clit and such. I think He just likes playing with me, period. Another thing He really seems to love is blow jobs while in the shower as well. It was so pleasing to hear His moans, and I loved the praise I received from Him as well...
"You know you're an adorable little cock sucker, right?"
Things like that make me so happy. ^.^
After the shower, we came back to His room where we spent tangled up in one another. Master remained in control all night last night, and He even forced me to have several orgasms that made it very difficult for me to stand up. One thing is for sure, I think my clit is bruised from all the "abuse" that I was forced to endure. Hahahaha... Worth it.
Plus, Master is training me to cum when He says a certain word. This sort of thing takes time, but I think it's going pretty well. ^.^ Sure lots of things that happened last night were sexual, but throughout the day, Master has definitely been showing that He is trying really hard to maintain that balance. Even today He still seems to be in this mood, which I am perfectly fine with, I only hope that this weekend continues to go well.
Hope everyone has a fun weekend too.
~*~Anastassia~*~
For Angel
So there's this girl... who is possibly one of the sweetest girls I know. She knows how to make me smile, and she is someone who I have no troubles confiding in. She's really smart, and she tries her best to be caring and supportive. I know I say this a lot about her, and I also say that I'm really lucky to have her, but I feel that is nothing short of the truth.
Over the past couple of years, we've had our friendship blossom into something quite beautiful.
*Sigh*
Look. Words can mean nothing, and everything at the same time. I'm not great with being poetic or anything like that. Just... I love her. Not like I love my Master, but I do love her. She makes me really happy, and I want to do everything in my power to make sure she lives a happy life. I hate when she's sick, and I wish there were ways I could take care of her.
There are days when I just can't help but think of her. Not in an obsessive way, but I just can't help but be reminded of her sometimes. Words really can not express... And I have a hard time talking about feelings like this without making myself sound obsessive, creepy, or anything else similar to that. In fact, part of me is kind of scared to type all of this up because I'm afraid she will think it weird of me.
I love her. Simple as that.I'm sorry that I am not well with words, and I'm sure she was expecting more, but I don't really know how else to say it. I just hope she won't think I'm crazy or weird or something.
~*~Anastassia~*~
*Sigh*
Look. Words can mean nothing, and everything at the same time. I'm not great with being poetic or anything like that. Just... I love her. Not like I love my Master, but I do love her. She makes me really happy, and I want to do everything in my power to make sure she lives a happy life. I hate when she's sick, and I wish there were ways I could take care of her.
There are days when I just can't help but think of her. Not in an obsessive way, but I just can't help but be reminded of her sometimes. Words really can not express... And I have a hard time talking about feelings like this without making myself sound obsessive, creepy, or anything else similar to that. In fact, part of me is kind of scared to type all of this up because I'm afraid she will think it weird of me.
I love her. Simple as that.I'm sorry that I am not well with words, and I'm sure she was expecting more, but I don't really know how else to say it. I just hope she won't think I'm crazy or weird or something.
~*~Anastassia~*~
Friday, January 20, 2012
Girl With The Dragon Tattoo: Movie Review
ATTENTION!: If you have not already seen this movie, and don't want it ruined for you, I advise you to not read any further. This not only contains my personal opinions and feelings on this movie (which me making a review should tell you all something, since I NEVER review things) but of course it contains a plethora of spoilers and such. Now that I have warned my readers, to those of you who read past this, be prepared for an onslaught of brought up emotions because of this movie that I will (hopefully) never have to speak of or feel ever again.
*Breathes* Here we go.
Before I go into details and such of this movie, I first want to state that all in all this was an entertaining movie, and I enjoyed it as well as one could enjoy this movie. It's rated R, but to those of you reading this that have teenage kids right about now, and maybe you let them see an R rated movie every now and then because it's "not that bad", I am begging you to please make them wait till they are at least 18 to see this movie. Really, I can not stress this enough. Also, the books, I hear, are far more graphic. (I'll be finding out soon enough because I now own all three books of this series, thanks to my mother, and I will be taking the time to read them). This movie is a powerful one, in my opinion, and brought out some of the worst emotions I think I have ever felt in my life.
The movie starts off with an old man who receives a package in the mail. It is a picture of a plant. The movie opens up into intro credits, and I've got to admit, I was hooked right then. The music is nuts and the graphics are just outrageously artistic and somewhat erotic. I will spare the biggest portion of details, because I really don't want to ruin the entire freaking movie, in case some of you just can't help but read, even though you haven't seen it yet.
The main reason I am writing this entry is because of certain events that took place within this movie that struck such a nerve within me, I literally nearly jumped out of my seat and left the theater. What I am about to talk about next, may not be a huge deal to some of you, but to me it is something that has almost always plagued my thoughts at some point or another because of my own past experiences.
One of the main characters of this movie, who I feel is quite the heroine, is Elizabeth. She is a young girl who has nothing short of a troubled life. Tattoos and various piercings decorated her body, and she bore a strange haircut unlike anything I've ever seen. I was immediately drawn to her the moment I saw her. Something about her intrigued me, and I wanted to know more. Needless to say, I did learn more, and even though this girl was technically a fictional character, she reminded me of something of my not so distant past.
A man (Bjurman) was later introduced, who she went to for financial help. When he is first on screen, you kind of get the feeling this guy isn't such a good man, but that he is more of a protagonist in such a way because he taunts Elizabeth for the way she looks and the things she has done in her past. From first appearance, you wouldn't think he was more than an asshole at best. But not too long after his first entrance (actually in the same scene if I recall correctly) his true colors show nearly instantly, and he is truly a hideous man.
Elizabeth asks for money, because she needs it. He then basically tells her that if she does a "favor" for him, he'll hand the money over to her. Okay, so what? Is he going to have her get the dirty scoop on someone he doesn't like? Nope.. Instead, he orders her to unzip his pants, then pretty much forces her to suck him off. The next scene follows in which she is washing her mouth out in the sink, followed by puking up what one can only assume is the semen she was forced to swallow.
That alone, kind of pissed me off, but I figured that was the worst of it, and continued to watch the movie in peace. Later on, though, you see Elizabeth calling him, saying she needs more money, and he invites her to his house. She agree's to come over and the immediate thought is "Yes! Payback time! She's going to stick it to him."
Wrong again.
She enter's his place and offers her to his bed room. She makes some joke asking if she has to give him a blow job every time she asks for money so she may get food. She sets her bag down in a chair, and I really don't think much of it. He then grabs her by the hand and latches a hand cuff around her wrist in a fast motion. This... this is where shit goes down hill for her, and you can tell immediately. She tries to scramble away, but being the fat huge guy he is, he wrestles her down, and she gets knocked unconscious.
You then see her wake back up, to realize just as she is taking notice as well, that she is strapped down to the bed on her stomach. Wrists and ankles both bound with chains and heavy duty restraints. You also see this pathetic excuse for a man forcing her shirt up, and ripping her pants down and panties off. He then proceeds to undo his own pants, mind you she is screaming the entire time and writhing violently trying to break the bonds that are holding her down. Obviously not succeeding... He of course climbs on top of her and (get this shit) puts a condom on before raping her in possibly on of the most graphic rape scenes I think I have ever witnessed on the big screen.
He ends up bruising her and after he is done with her, hands her a check for ten thousand dollars and she takes her leave.
This.. brings me to my main point of this entry. The entire time I watched that scene unfurl, I felt sick to my stomach, and I felt a rage build inside me that made me want scream louder than I've ever screamed before, hit something harder than I've ever hit before, and most of all, I wanted get up, leave the theater and cry my eyes out.
Don't get me wrong, I've never been raped before, but I have friends who have, and I myself (as I've mentioned before) have been molested, which is getting too close for comfort as it is. I think the main reason this particular scene enraged me nearly as bad as it did, is because of how realistic it was, and how horrifyingly close it got to my worst fear of a rape scenario... ever.... Plus, I've never really been able to handle a rape scene in movies before. And this is probably why.
Also the author of this trilogy wrote this series in order to portray violence against women because it was a way to cope with the fact that he had witnessed a woman name Lisbeth get raped and he didn't to anything about it. That was something that haunted him his entire life, thus the reason he made these books. He was trying to show us in the best way how awful rape can truly be, and it is meant to bring out such emotions I felt tonight. I am kind of sickened, but impressed by this.
At any rate, Elizabeth gets her revenge later on, and tazes him in his own place on the throat, and when he comes to, his room is torn apart and he is strapped to the floor on his back and his mouth gagged. Elizabeth is of course dressed in black, like she is 97% of the movie, and she turns on the tv in front of them to show that she video taped the whole thing. Him raping her. She played it for him as she interrogated him, and shoved a thick metal rod up his ass. She then tazed the rod, shooting electricity into his body. I literally cheered with joy and anger. She also brought a needle gun, like artists use when giving a person a tattoo, and carved into his chest and stomach "I AM A RAPIST PIG". Not going to lie. I was thrilled when this happen. I do think she should have killed him though, but for the rest of the movie, she threatens him and keeps him scared and he never tries touching her again.
Thank. Fucking. God.
Anyways, the rest of the movie had a few sex scenes, not rape, thankfully. Rape was mentioned a LOT in the movie and justice was brought down like a sweet blanket of warmth. The movie was great when I don't think about what really sparked these awful thoughts and emotions I've had for the last couple of hours. Honestly, I'm glad I blogged about this, because it was seriously bothering me. Really... really bothering.
Anyways, hope I didn't piss some of you off. If you watch the movie, you have been warned. If you feel like striking up a conversation with me here in the comment section, or sending me an email, please feel free. Hope everyone has a great weekend.
~*~Anastassia~*
*Breathes* Here we go.
Before I go into details and such of this movie, I first want to state that all in all this was an entertaining movie, and I enjoyed it as well as one could enjoy this movie. It's rated R, but to those of you reading this that have teenage kids right about now, and maybe you let them see an R rated movie every now and then because it's "not that bad", I am begging you to please make them wait till they are at least 18 to see this movie. Really, I can not stress this enough. Also, the books, I hear, are far more graphic. (I'll be finding out soon enough because I now own all three books of this series, thanks to my mother, and I will be taking the time to read them). This movie is a powerful one, in my opinion, and brought out some of the worst emotions I think I have ever felt in my life.
The movie starts off with an old man who receives a package in the mail. It is a picture of a plant. The movie opens up into intro credits, and I've got to admit, I was hooked right then. The music is nuts and the graphics are just outrageously artistic and somewhat erotic. I will spare the biggest portion of details, because I really don't want to ruin the entire freaking movie, in case some of you just can't help but read, even though you haven't seen it yet.
The main reason I am writing this entry is because of certain events that took place within this movie that struck such a nerve within me, I literally nearly jumped out of my seat and left the theater. What I am about to talk about next, may not be a huge deal to some of you, but to me it is something that has almost always plagued my thoughts at some point or another because of my own past experiences.
One of the main characters of this movie, who I feel is quite the heroine, is Elizabeth. She is a young girl who has nothing short of a troubled life. Tattoos and various piercings decorated her body, and she bore a strange haircut unlike anything I've ever seen. I was immediately drawn to her the moment I saw her. Something about her intrigued me, and I wanted to know more. Needless to say, I did learn more, and even though this girl was technically a fictional character, she reminded me of something of my not so distant past.
A man (Bjurman) was later introduced, who she went to for financial help. When he is first on screen, you kind of get the feeling this guy isn't such a good man, but that he is more of a protagonist in such a way because he taunts Elizabeth for the way she looks and the things she has done in her past. From first appearance, you wouldn't think he was more than an asshole at best. But not too long after his first entrance (actually in the same scene if I recall correctly) his true colors show nearly instantly, and he is truly a hideous man.
Elizabeth asks for money, because she needs it. He then basically tells her that if she does a "favor" for him, he'll hand the money over to her. Okay, so what? Is he going to have her get the dirty scoop on someone he doesn't like? Nope.. Instead, he orders her to unzip his pants, then pretty much forces her to suck him off. The next scene follows in which she is washing her mouth out in the sink, followed by puking up what one can only assume is the semen she was forced to swallow.
That alone, kind of pissed me off, but I figured that was the worst of it, and continued to watch the movie in peace. Later on, though, you see Elizabeth calling him, saying she needs more money, and he invites her to his house. She agree's to come over and the immediate thought is "Yes! Payback time! She's going to stick it to him."
Wrong again.
She enter's his place and offers her to his bed room. She makes some joke asking if she has to give him a blow job every time she asks for money so she may get food. She sets her bag down in a chair, and I really don't think much of it. He then grabs her by the hand and latches a hand cuff around her wrist in a fast motion. This... this is where shit goes down hill for her, and you can tell immediately. She tries to scramble away, but being the fat huge guy he is, he wrestles her down, and she gets knocked unconscious.
You then see her wake back up, to realize just as she is taking notice as well, that she is strapped down to the bed on her stomach. Wrists and ankles both bound with chains and heavy duty restraints. You also see this pathetic excuse for a man forcing her shirt up, and ripping her pants down and panties off. He then proceeds to undo his own pants, mind you she is screaming the entire time and writhing violently trying to break the bonds that are holding her down. Obviously not succeeding... He of course climbs on top of her and (get this shit) puts a condom on before raping her in possibly on of the most graphic rape scenes I think I have ever witnessed on the big screen.
He ends up bruising her and after he is done with her, hands her a check for ten thousand dollars and she takes her leave.
This.. brings me to my main point of this entry. The entire time I watched that scene unfurl, I felt sick to my stomach, and I felt a rage build inside me that made me want scream louder than I've ever screamed before, hit something harder than I've ever hit before, and most of all, I wanted get up, leave the theater and cry my eyes out.
Don't get me wrong, I've never been raped before, but I have friends who have, and I myself (as I've mentioned before) have been molested, which is getting too close for comfort as it is. I think the main reason this particular scene enraged me nearly as bad as it did, is because of how realistic it was, and how horrifyingly close it got to my worst fear of a rape scenario... ever.... Plus, I've never really been able to handle a rape scene in movies before. And this is probably why.
Also the author of this trilogy wrote this series in order to portray violence against women because it was a way to cope with the fact that he had witnessed a woman name Lisbeth get raped and he didn't to anything about it. That was something that haunted him his entire life, thus the reason he made these books. He was trying to show us in the best way how awful rape can truly be, and it is meant to bring out such emotions I felt tonight. I am kind of sickened, but impressed by this.
At any rate, Elizabeth gets her revenge later on, and tazes him in his own place on the throat, and when he comes to, his room is torn apart and he is strapped to the floor on his back and his mouth gagged. Elizabeth is of course dressed in black, like she is 97% of the movie, and she turns on the tv in front of them to show that she video taped the whole thing. Him raping her. She played it for him as she interrogated him, and shoved a thick metal rod up his ass. She then tazed the rod, shooting electricity into his body. I literally cheered with joy and anger. She also brought a needle gun, like artists use when giving a person a tattoo, and carved into his chest and stomach "I AM A RAPIST PIG". Not going to lie. I was thrilled when this happen. I do think she should have killed him though, but for the rest of the movie, she threatens him and keeps him scared and he never tries touching her again.
Thank. Fucking. God.
Anyways, the rest of the movie had a few sex scenes, not rape, thankfully. Rape was mentioned a LOT in the movie and justice was brought down like a sweet blanket of warmth. The movie was great when I don't think about what really sparked these awful thoughts and emotions I've had for the last couple of hours. Honestly, I'm glad I blogged about this, because it was seriously bothering me. Really... really bothering.
Anyways, hope I didn't piss some of you off. If you watch the movie, you have been warned. If you feel like striking up a conversation with me here in the comment section, or sending me an email, please feel free. Hope everyone has a great weekend.
~*~Anastassia~*
Tuesday, January 17, 2012
News and Updates
Things have been boring, kink wise lately, and that really kind of sucks since I enjoy all things kink, but it's given Master and I some time to see an old friend or two, and spend some time with them. I don't know if any of you remember me talking about Hannah, but we are back to being friends again, and the last three days were pretty much spent with her. It was pretty awesome. In fact, it was like we never fought at all. We were back to being our silly selves with one another almost instantly, and this weekend was filled with laughter and such.
Definitely great seeing her again.
Master hasn't really been very dominate lately, so I'm not sure what is going on with that. I've been trying to keep things like that to myself because I don't want to upset Him. Maybe if I'm patient He'll do something on His own.. I don't know.
I'm a little worried He has forgotten again, mainly because of past experiences and what-not. He doesn't really talk to me about anything concerning His dominance and it is something that we really should address, but I'll just give it some more time. Maybe I'll get lucky and He's been just trying to think of things or something... *sigh*... or perhaps I'm convincing myself. To be honest, I have very little faith because of all the times He's told me He'll try, and He just forgets. I'm really finding it hard to have faith in Him with this... and it upsets me...
I went to the mall on Sunday with Master and Hannah, and Hannah had been telling me all day Saturday that she thought my boobs were a lot larger. I told her there was no way, and that I only wear a 40C in bra size. For some reason, she wasn't convinced. So while we were at the mall, we stopped in at Victoria's Secret to get me sized, and sure enough, she was right. I am a between a 38DD and a 40DD. WHAT THE HECK HAPPENED?! So that was definitely interesting. She had a smug grin on her face the whole time and all she said at first was "You're welcome." Still makes me laugh a little.
I haven't been able to see Angel or Panda for the last couple of weeks now because of their health issues, so nothing really has been going on in that department. Kind of a bummer really, but shit happens, I suppose... I just hope they get to feeling better soon. I really miss them and wish I could see them more often. Only time will tell.
Hannah is taking courses to become a Dietitian, so she has been helping me lately with learning what things I should and should not eat, found out the right amount of calorie intake I actually need every day, and has helped me with a food course of what I need to eat daily and how much of it. It's pretty darn cool having an up coming Dietitian as a friend. She also has started in on me about being more healthy, so it's cool having a friend who cares enough to get onto me when she thinks I'm slacking. This should be fun.
I've been feeling really submissive lately, but I don't think Master has really taken notice. Then again, I don;t know...
I'm sorry.. my post is all over the place. I keep jumping back and forth between subjects and crap. This is how my thought process is on most days, which is probably why I don't blog a lot. In fact, I have been contemplating getting rid of this blog. Whether or not I would actually start over is another thing. I don't know. Master insists I don't do it, and that is probably the main reason I haven't done it yet.
Anyways, I'm ending this post.
~*~Anastassia~*~
Definitely great seeing her again.
Master hasn't really been very dominate lately, so I'm not sure what is going on with that. I've been trying to keep things like that to myself because I don't want to upset Him. Maybe if I'm patient He'll do something on His own.. I don't know.
I'm a little worried He has forgotten again, mainly because of past experiences and what-not. He doesn't really talk to me about anything concerning His dominance and it is something that we really should address, but I'll just give it some more time. Maybe I'll get lucky and He's been just trying to think of things or something... *sigh*... or perhaps I'm convincing myself. To be honest, I have very little faith because of all the times He's told me He'll try, and He just forgets. I'm really finding it hard to have faith in Him with this... and it upsets me...
I went to the mall on Sunday with Master and Hannah, and Hannah had been telling me all day Saturday that she thought my boobs were a lot larger. I told her there was no way, and that I only wear a 40C in bra size. For some reason, she wasn't convinced. So while we were at the mall, we stopped in at Victoria's Secret to get me sized, and sure enough, she was right. I am a between a 38DD and a 40DD. WHAT THE HECK HAPPENED?! So that was definitely interesting. She had a smug grin on her face the whole time and all she said at first was "You're welcome." Still makes me laugh a little.
I haven't been able to see Angel or Panda for the last couple of weeks now because of their health issues, so nothing really has been going on in that department. Kind of a bummer really, but shit happens, I suppose... I just hope they get to feeling better soon. I really miss them and wish I could see them more often. Only time will tell.
Hannah is taking courses to become a Dietitian, so she has been helping me lately with learning what things I should and should not eat, found out the right amount of calorie intake I actually need every day, and has helped me with a food course of what I need to eat daily and how much of it. It's pretty darn cool having an up coming Dietitian as a friend. She also has started in on me about being more healthy, so it's cool having a friend who cares enough to get onto me when she thinks I'm slacking. This should be fun.
I've been feeling really submissive lately, but I don't think Master has really taken notice. Then again, I don;t know...
I'm sorry.. my post is all over the place. I keep jumping back and forth between subjects and crap. This is how my thought process is on most days, which is probably why I don't blog a lot. In fact, I have been contemplating getting rid of this blog. Whether or not I would actually start over is another thing. I don't know. Master insists I don't do it, and that is probably the main reason I haven't done it yet.
Anyways, I'm ending this post.
~*~Anastassia~*~
Thursday, January 12, 2012
Some Questions/Praise To My Readers
I know I talk a LOT about myself and my life, but I'm started to feel a little selfish. I realized I never really stopped to ask what you, my readers, would like to know from me.
So what would you all like to know or see me talk about?
Are there things you want me to blog less about?
What do you feel I should change to possibly make this blog a little more fun, intersting and enjoyable?
Should I not change anything at all?
Give me some reviews and tell me what you all think. While I do love talking about random things, and post stuff as I feel like it, I also want to appeal more to my readers, and I happen to want to know what they like to see the most about my blog, and what things they would like to see/not see more of.
So please, feel free to comment below and give me your honest thoughts. I can handle constructive criticism, so have at it.
Thanks for reading, and thank you all for following me for as long as what you all have. I really appreciate each and every one of you, and I appreciate that you take a little time out of your lives to just do something as simple as read what I have to say, even if you all don't comment. ^.^ You all have been great to me. Thank you so much.
~*~Anastassia~*~
So what would you all like to know or see me talk about?
Are there things you want me to blog less about?
What do you feel I should change to possibly make this blog a little more fun, intersting and enjoyable?
Should I not change anything at all?
Give me some reviews and tell me what you all think. While I do love talking about random things, and post stuff as I feel like it, I also want to appeal more to my readers, and I happen to want to know what they like to see the most about my blog, and what things they would like to see/not see more of.
So please, feel free to comment below and give me your honest thoughts. I can handle constructive criticism, so have at it.
Thanks for reading, and thank you all for following me for as long as what you all have. I really appreciate each and every one of you, and I appreciate that you take a little time out of your lives to just do something as simple as read what I have to say, even if you all don't comment. ^.^ You all have been great to me. Thank you so much.
~*~Anastassia~*~
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