Wednesday, September 21, 2011

Birth Control and Video's

Here within the past three or four months, I've been having an awful time with my body. Despite being on birth control for about 4 or 5 years, my periods were starting become irregular again, and I started having break through bleeding/spotting in between periods. A lot of times the spotting was heavy enough for me to have to wear a tampon and a pad. I knew it was time to change my birth control and try something a lot more new to me. 

My annual check up was only a week away, so I decided I was just going to wait it out, even though I was having yet my third break through bleeding only after two and a half weeks after my last period. I decided it was time to change to Seasonique. This particular birth control puts a certain type of hormone into the body which causes the woman who is taking it to have only up to four periods a year. Hence, the name. Master and I are not planning on having kids for at least another 5-7 years, so I figured that since this will not only make my periods less frequent and less longer, I'll also be saving gobs of money from not having to buy so many tampon and pad packages! It's a win/win situation, so how in the world could I pass this up?

I was going to wait till today to start on my seasonique, but Monday afternoon made me change my mind rather quickly. When I first started having periods, they were awful! I would go through about 4 pads a day from the excessive blood flow I had, and to top it off, I would have cramps that would hurt so bad I couldn't even move, let alone walk. Ever since taking birth control, those two symptoms cleared up a lot and I hadn't had to worry about them for quite some time. Monday, however, they came back again for the first time in 5 years, and it was right in the middle of HJC where I was going to get my new class schedules for this quarter. 

I was walking around the building, feeling a little achy, but fine none-the-less, when right as I was about to walk up to one of the secretaries, it hit me. This horrible excruciating pain hit me in the uterine area and quickly traveled to my legs and ankles within a split second. This caused my knee's to buckle up, and I stopped in my tracks in mid stride. The second I stopped, my knee's gave out on me and I just dropped to the floor.

Nearly gave that woman a heart attack. She was sitting there going "Oh my gosh! Do I need to call an ambulance?!" I told her "No" and asked for a water so I could take some Alieve to help dull the pain. She ended up helping me off the floor, and by the time I got home, I was so worn out from the fall and the pain that was still running through my lower body, I ended up going back to sleep somewhere around 2 and didn't wake back up till a little after 5:30 when Master called me to let me know He was on His way to come get me.

Needless to say, I started my new birth control a couple days early, and I'm hoping that once this period is over, this stuff will do it's job and I'll end up having less periods to worry about. Those horrible cramps were the reason I started birth control in the first place, and I'll be damned if I have to go through them again. I hate not being able to not do anything, and I hate being in pain for 3 or 4 days while my period rules my world at that moment. 

On to other things!

I have set my mind on a new project of sorts. This does not mean I'm going to give up blogging though, so no one is getting rid of me that easily. I have decided that I am going to start making educational videos.... about... KINK! =D 

Well really, anything kink, BDSM, and anything else related. Granted, there are a few channels on youtube that have great qualities about them. but I have also seen more video's of people talking about BDSM and such with what seem to be an uneducated mind. Not saying ALL of them are like that, because they are not, but some are. Granted, I've only been living the lifestyle for two and a half years, but I'm pretty sure I can do this and I have enough knowledge to go on to do this. 

My Youtube channel is going to be called "Lets Talk Kink!" and now that I have just finished setting up the profile, (well not 100% finished, but I'm close enough) I'm going to start working on my first video which is going to be about the number one thing we should all think about before doing anything kink related. 

Is it safe? Is it sane? and Is it consensual?

So wish me luck on this! I hope this takes off, and I hope this gets a lot of reviews. I'm really excited about starting this new project! ^.^



  1. I'm so sorry you had to go through all that pain. I know *exactly* how you feel...that's why I don't have periods anymore...I hope the seasonique makes you feel better soon.

    As for the videos, I hope that goes well, too! My only question is, are you going to be showing your face to the camera? I know you've had a few scares on Fetlife, of people recognizing you, and Youtube is a lot bigger than Fetlife...just something to think about...

  2. I hope it works too. Thanks for your well wishes.

    As for the video thing, that is something I have thought about, and I'm thinking I may wear a mask or something. May sound silly, but yeah... It's why I haven't started it yet, but I will be getting started on it here VERY soon.

  3. Yeah, I've seen people go the 'mask' route...It's not silly, it's a legitimate way of trying to hide your identity. Before jumping into it, I would make sure you've figured out how to keep yourself from being recognized, whether by mask or something else...and if the risk of someone still recognizing your voice/body/face/etc is a risk you're willing to take. I just worry about you, I don't want you to get into trouble <3

  4. Thanks for keeping an eye out for me. ^.^ It means a lot. <3 I'm hoping that the ask thing does work out for me. I'm also hoping that people will take me seriously still, even with the mask on. =/ *crosses fingers*

  5. I would also maybe suggest filming with a blank wall or a black sheet or something as the background, so people can't see what your room looks like, nothing identifiable on the walls, etc...You'd be surprised at what people can use to figure out who you are...

  6. Way ahead of you there. ^.^ Thanks for that though! =D I thought it would have been a good idea, and that just helped me put it down in my head as "Yes, this is a good idea." <3

  7. We can also work on altering your voice in comp proggies - it's actually really easy to bring it up or down a few steps and change a bit of timbre.

  8. That's a really cool idea! Thanks Certari. You're going to have to teach Master and I. XD